25/05/2026
I want to start by saying clearly I’m sorry for the mistakes I’ve made and for the impact this situation has had on other people.
I take responsibility for my actions, and I understand why people are upset, why questions have been asked, and why this has become what it has online.
I’m not going to sit here and pretend I’m perfect or that I haven’t done things I should have handled differently. I have, and I own that.
Over the past month especially, I’ve had a lot of time to sit with everything no distractions, no noise just reflection. And it’s been one of the most difficult periods I’ve had to deal with mentally and emotionally.
There have been nights I haven’t slept properly, days where I’ve felt completely overwhelmed, and moments where I’ve had to honestly look at myself and accept that I need to change certain parts of how I think, act, and respond in life.
That part has been uncomfortable, but necessary.
So yes I’ve done wrong, and I understand that comes with backlash, opinions, and consequences. I accept that.
What I also need to be honest about is that this isn’t something that changes overnight. As a man, and as a person, I need to do real work on myself. And I’m giving myself the time and space to actually do that properly.
That means I’m not running from this, and I’m not hiding from it. I’m dealing with it, learning from it, and taking steps to become better.
At the same time, I also need to acknowledge that the online side of this has been heavy. There’s been a lot of things shared, assumptions made, fake accounts, manipulated conversations, and narratives that don’t always reflect the full reality of situations.
But even saying that, I’m not using it as an excuse. I’m still accountable for my actions, and I accept that fully.
One of the biggest lessons I’ve taken from this is that you can’t control everything once it’s online. You can’t control opinions, you can’t control narratives, and you can’t control what people choose to believe. The only thing you can control is how you respond and how you grow from it.
And that’s what I’m focusing on now.
I’ve started surrounding myself with better people. Real people. Good men. People who are honest, direct, and who actually hold each other accountable instead of just saying what sounds good.
Tuesday nights have been part of that for me. Simple, real conversations around the table. No ego, no pretending, just men showing up as they are and speaking honestly.
And I won’t lie that’s been grounding for me. It’s reminded me that growth isn’t just about saying the right things, it’s about actually changing how you live over time.
I’m also getting the help and support I need personally. That’s something I should have taken more seriously before, but I’m taking it seriously now. I know I can’t do this alone, and I don’t want to pretend I can anymore.
If people don’t accept my apology or my ownership of this, that’s completely understandable. I respect that.
But I needed to be honest about where I’m at, what I’m working on, and the fact that I am trying to become better from this not just say I will, but actually put in the work over time.
Some of the things I’m personally holding myself accountable for moving forward are simple but important to me.
Cutting down on drinking, which is already slowly happening and something I’m continuing to work on properly. Taking steps to learn something new in life, something I’ve already made moves toward and I’m currently waiting on responses for. And staying true to the men I’ve chosen to have around me, because the people around you do matter when you’re trying to change.
Those aren’t big statements for attention, they’re just real things I know I need to work on in my own life.
I understand not everyone will agree with this, and I’m not asking for perfection or approval.
I’m just taking responsibility, learning from it, and moving forward properly.
That’s all.
