24/11/2025
The day I saw her… everything in me just broke. All I could do was eat and smoke to numb the stress and the fear I was carrying. Ever since I found out my mother was sick, sleep has become impossible. And if I do sleep, it’s barely anything. It hurts so deeply to watch her worsen like that, knowing no one even brought her to a hospital to ease the swelling in her stomach.
Imagine your own tummy swelling that much—can you picture the pain? How could that not mean something serious was happening inside her?
When I called her, I realized I just couldn’t take it anymore. I had promised myself I wouldn’t go home, but everything changed. Even my husband insisted I return. And just like that, in two days, I was on a flight back to the Philippines.
When I got home, she asked me to come to her, and it shattered my heart. She told me to come because my sibling wasn’t there anymore, and she didn’t want any conflict if I decided to bring her home. So I didn’t hesitate—I took her, because she wanted to go home so badly. An hour later, she told me she really wanted to go to the hospital. I respected her wish, and thank God I did. Her oxygen level was already at 85%, and she was experiencing hypoxemia… At her age, 95% would have been normal. I thank the Lord it didn’t drop to 79%. I can’t stop thinking—what if I hadn’t come home? What could have happened?
But now… I’m so grateful to see her improving. My Nanay is a fighter—truly a fighter. Whatever God’s plan is, I surrender it to Him. We don’t know how much time she has left, and I’m trying not to expect too much. My only hope now is simple: that she feels no pain. Even if she may never fully recover, I just want her to be free from suffering.
All I ever needed was cooperation, but you—my own siblings—chose to ignore me and keep holding on to whatever differences we have. It’s all up to you now. As long as I’m here, I will follow our mother’s decisions, not yours, because Nanay is still fully aware and knows what she wants.
Go ahead—continue with your pride held high. I honestly don’t give a damn anymore. You deal with it.
I know exactly what you’ve been doing to Nanay… unbelievable. 🙄
