19/06/2025
Wow. So long between posts.
I have been very shall we say UNexpressive of late. And maybe thatās why my thyroid is so annoyed at me. No expression is very unbridget like.
Iāve always been expressive. And talkative. Since birth I was squawking away (reminds me of someone else š)
This recent āhealth Mac truckā (aka Gravesā disease) wasnāt quite enough to wake me up, we also needed a month of relentless viruses one after the otherā¦
Feather, brick, Mac truck Bridgieā¦
Yep ok. Iām hearing you. Iām waking up.
Yesterday I was reminded of one of my CORE BELIEFS that I had forgotten.
The body is an expression of the subconscious mind. How many of you have worked with me, listened to me, read my content and heard me say this??
Yet, I had forgotten. Since Iāve had my children and had the most traumatic and scary experiences of my life involving them, Iāve abandoned myself and my inner knowing and searched outside of myself to find āthe right wayā. To do everything involving my kids. I donāt want to get it wrong. I donāt want to make a mistake. Iām terrified of making a mistake and getting it wrongā¦
And this fear has had me so far disconnected from myself, from my knowing and my wisdom. Iāve felt so stupid. Like I know NOTHING.
I have sat shaking in my boots most of the time and missed so much magic and wonder and joy
Iāve tuned out. Numbed out. Sat in passive fear. Not wanting to put a foot wrong. Iāve stopped speaking. Literally. I donāt really speak to anyone like I used to. Iāve stopped writing. Creating. Expressing.
Iāve simply flicked over to HAYU and binged every housewives series you can name. š
But yesterday it was like a miraculous wake up moment. From one thing someone said. That was an actual reflection of what Iād said and deeply believed so many times before.
O M G!!! Yes. How could I forget?! Our subconscious is driving us. It is the crew behind the captain and when weāre disconnected the crew are not listening and just creating chaos.
90% of everything we think, say and do (at a minimum) is deriving from our SC mind. If we are not tuning IN & being aware of the ābackground noiseā running the show, we are going to feel like weāre in ā¬ļø
