19/08/2025
I was always curious about why people smell the way they do but the thing about my mother’s smell was that she always smelled of food; she also always looked sad. When I asked her why she was always sad, she replied:
“I am not sad. I am just thinking.”
“About what?”
“About you.”
“But I am right here.”
“I know you are. Come and hug me.”
“I don’t want to. You smell of garlic.”
“I was making dinner for you. Your favorite pasta.”
“Okay, then I will hug you but only for a second.”
I loved my mom and I still do, but I never liked her smell. I never liked garlic pasta either, but every time she cooked it and watched me eat, she had an exciting look in her eyes that allowed them to shine so brightly that her cheeks would turn bright red. These were the only times I knew for sure she was not sad.
Sleep is a beautiful experience, especially when you are tired. If you have been awake for a while hearing gunshots, and bombs, and threats, and cries, and other things that humans do to each other for no reason, you would get so tired that you would learn to sleep in such environments. So, I slept like a baby dreaming about going home to my wife when Alan woke me up.
“David! David, wake up.”
“What’s going on?”
I really wanted to punch him for waking me up when I had finally fallen asleep, but I was 19, and that was old enough for getting a punch back for not having a good excuse for a punch which meant that if I punched Alan, he would punch me back. But Alan is a good kid from a good family. He is only 18, but he is braver than all the other kids his age who run away every time a bomb comes to our side. But Alan is a good kid and as a good kid, he would, of course, punch me back if I punched him. He also smelled of dirt and sweat which is the smell of every soldier, but he had bright blue eyes, like the peaceful skies which we, Armenians, have never seen because we are a small nation nobody knows about. Except our enemies do. When they attack, we have to fight.
- from “Armenian Eyes” by .baghinyan
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