12/23/2023
I am tired of explaining myself. I know I come with a true but rude tongue. I know I am a hard person to be with. But please, don’t expect me to keep explaining myself to you. I am not standing in the court, defending myself against murder charges. I am not answerable to your “judgments.” I might be a difficult person. But I am not fake. So if you doubt me or my intentions, then just get the hell out of my life. Keep your doubts, judgments, and fears to yourself. If you can’t trust someone, then again, go to hell. But don’t keep telling me that “I can’t trust you.” I don’t care. I don’t want your trust. I don’t want you to believe me. I don’t want you in my life. I am not living to please you. I am living for my own happiness and my peace. You can stay only if you don’t ruin any of them. My life is not a battle in which you are the trophy. Find someone that worthless and desperate for whom you will be that winning trophy. For me, you are equal. If it’s about trust, we both need to trust. If it’s about efforts, we both make efforts. Nobody is doing any favor on anyone here. So if I give you space and trust, I expect the same from you.
I am sick of people coming and telling me that I “seem” like this and that kind of person. Do you know me? Do you know my story? Do you know my heart? No. You don’t. You are just a judgmental fool. And I don’t want this negativity in my life anymore. I have wasted enough time, explaining to people what I meant, what my intentions were. It’s all about trust. That trust has to be pure and blind. If your soul does not whisper that “trust this person,” then there is no point in us being anything. We should stay strangers. You live your life. I live mine. No fights, no arguments, no explanations, no drama, only peace we will have in our lives. I have no emotions and time left for people who don’t see the goodness in me, who can’t see the purity of my heart. You are blind. And that’s your problem. You deal with it. Don’t come with your problem to me. I am not interested in your mess. Trust me and stay or doubt me and leave. Choice is yours.
~ Rahul Kaushik
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