07/12/2025
Well, after a year in a depression rutt, due to many
reasons that include, but are not limited to:
My nan-in-law, a very awesome, and outgoing person, and one of my fiancées best friends, had passed away; leaving my fiancée in a dark place for months; and me being strong for her, and trying to take the anger (just pure anger at the world) that she felt and projected, and try not to take it personally.
For those whom also have adhd, you know how hard that is lol
My BPD and ADHD had hit a big low (I hadnt felt since maybe My Own best friend, my Pa, passed away when I was younger) point after this.
I was taking on all kinds of work, trying to be nice, when inside I was overwhelmed, and crying for help and relief...
Thats why I had to stop making videos for a while. I needed to ask the doctor for help, of which took me till about a month n half ago.. and just tackle one thing at a time.
On top of this I run an ARK: Ascended cluster, and ascended has had a rocky time for the past year too, and that work kept me busy af.
The medication the doctor put me on, and my change of focus, and priority based working has allowed me to finally stick my head back up above the dark, harsh waves of depression, and not feel so overwhelmed. I am also not foggy while waking up anymore; that really helps me get my day started much earlier than the 3h it took me to "feel normal" (as normal as was possible) every day before..
PLEASE IF YOU NEED HELP, IF YOU ARE DOWN, AND SORE, AND TIRED, AND FOGGY HEADED EVERY DAY, SEE YOUR DOCTOR!!
I cannot stress this enough; no matter your beliefs, the medical system is there to help, and they can, and will, you just need to have patience and be able to ask for the help, thats all.
Thank you for reading this far, and if you do, you are one of the reasons that makes me want to do the things I like doing, and so...
I have started recording again!!!
I have found a game that invokes a lot of feeling, and is actually quite intense for a "Cinematic" like game. Stay tuned for more info!!
I will also do a full ark playthrough if folks still want it, and Stalker 2 also. Lemme kno in the comments.
Thank You So Much for your patience, and for your support; it means the absolute Universe to me 👊
See you next time!
~Hugh Hustla~