Virago Code

03/08/2022

11/07/2021

Every day is a battle, a new struggle that will make you question who you are, what you stand for and what your purpose is. I am in a place right now where the deepest parts of myself are being tested. I'm digging and digging, scratching away the surface, the scars don't seem tough enough. The ripples are a window into the wave of dimension.

It isn't about waiting for a moment that will make things easier.... It's about leaning into the depth that is calling for me, learning a new strength and new way to handle a situation. It's here that I'm remembering who the f**k I am. Last night someone said... "You're in survival mode" - and my response was "I am and I'm tired"

Life IS tough right, that's what I'm told, it's in the parts that have molded me- there's zero question about that and while I may want to sit and wait for a moment for life to be easier - I'll be waiting a long ass time

I will forge a way through discipline, discipline of the mind to push harder, to be stronger, to endure the resilience of life. Strengthening the mindset to persevere in tough times and build confidence to not be taken down

This is the pure soul and fire that will keep it lit. Focus on internal strength, powering our mindset and taking control of your thoughts and actions

Feed the fire within.... As I try and soften the shell

11/05/2021

WHAT IS YOUR NORMAL?

For years I struggled with identity issues
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For years I struggled with trusting people
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For years I struggled with smoking, drinking and behaviors that were not moving me forward
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I thought it was normal
I thought everybody was living that way
I thought it was because of my age
I thought everyone felt that way & went through these things
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I then realized that my way of thinking was shaped from my trauma and then the circle I created from that. My destructive behavior was based out of fear, hurt and the lack of discipline. I had chains around me & I was comfortable in my weakness. It had become my normal
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I sought help & got it and it made all the difference in my recovery.
I was able to turn my thoughts into healthier paths and in turn take action to advance my internal dialogue. To truly learn love & acceptance that started with myself.
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I learned to appreciate my lessons & my path... Even all the hardships became a gateway and guidance. Learning to accept and love all there is about me, flaws and all, was just enough to let me see all the good that can come from so much bad.
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Anyone that is on a path of discovery, recovery, change or growth must acknowledge some days will be better then others, it won't be easy and the lessons are everywhere but only if we have the courage to see them!
**knormal

10/13/2021

This picture may scare some of you, turn you off or even make some role their eyes...
But the first time I saw this, it resonated with me on such a deep level, I look at it daily
Becoming a mother was the single most life changing event of my life (X's 5) but being a parent/ a protector, fulfilling that role with every ounce of blood , every tear and sacrifice that I could muster IS what made me a fighter and a survivor

I was asked a couple days ago if what I went through as a child/ teen was what made me strong or if I was born that way..... I pondered that question but here's my answer

I think we ALL have it in us. Life can break us down, bury that strength and become unseen, making us forget we have it. If we are clear in our minds... It can be awoken. If you are focused, it can be awoken. You have to block out the noise. Go deep within yourself.... Strength will awaken
BUT..
If you are
d
Distracted
Drunk
High
Misaligned
Sick
Unhealthy
Needy
Vanity stricken
Materialistic
Self absorbed
Dramatic
Or have a need to be needed....

You will never awaken
We can not be brave for others when we are unable to be brave for ourselves.
Require more
Stop the fear
Change the emotion
And be the divine, courageous, brave, mamabear, lioness, wolf that you are meant to be - strength comes from the mind. Not a barbell, not a job title, not by being a girl boss or big load of money.....

Strength is defined by the limits you either have or don't have - what you will do or not do to protect your peace and the ones you love and vowed to protect🐺

09/28/2021

I Don't Think Enough People Realize How Much Strength It Takes To Pull Your Own Self Out Of A Dark Place Mentally.
So If You've Done That Today, Or Any Day, Be Fu**in Proud Of Yourself

09/24/2021

Growth and pursuit of our own goals will create a division and we may lose people
It may be the ones that were once the closest to you

The pain is deep
Yet we forge forward and dig deep in pursuit of what we know is right
As we lose one's around us, it is normal to question ourselves and our path

It is then that the importance to stay in your own lane becomes most evident - Focus, don't let emotion take over.

We are not in control of others path, it is theres

You need to stay your own course

09/22/2021

And one day she discovered that she was fierce, strong and full of fire, and that not even she could hold herself back because her passion burned brighter than her fears - Mark Anthony

09/14/2021

Regardless of the heat, the fire serves a purpose

It can either burn you, feed you or warm you

The difference is only in your perception

09/14/2021

No matter what you think you're made of

No matter how hard you think you can run
........you can dig deeper.

How ever far you think you can run, you can run further.

When you think you’ve given it your all, there is more inside.

It’s all in the mind, your body is it's slave......

Practice Fortitude
Practice Discipline

I assure you, you’re worth it and it’s inside of you.

09/12/2021

Are you HIDING...
from REACHING the FULL version of yourself?

One major thing I struggled with for years and it ultimately kept me submersed, was -
HIDING.

Hiding my feelings.
Hiding my wins.
Hiding my losses.
Hiding my truth.

Hiding inside of my "busy" life that I had purposefully created.
I was able to hide from the real issues that were holding me back and in a state of victimization. Hiding in the achievements of my children...
Hiding in my isolation
In my anger, betrayal, fear

There is NOT one area in my life that was not affected

So when I knew things needed to change I had to question:
Why and what are the reasons I've done this?

Where do I even begin?

It cant just be me that struggles with this...
I'm sure I can't be alone.

With this being said...I had to ask myself a big question and now I'm asking you -

When will you be ready to stop giving away days and face what you're hiding from?

So, What does “being ready” even mean?

How do you ever know?

Like seriously what happens...
Does anyone have an idea of this concept?
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So here's the thing, the scary thing...... We have zero guarantees that life will get better. Zero guarantees of what life will be like after going through the hell. That's why we don't.... It's easier to take the road most predictable even if it's not the best one. Humans need answers and assurities... And we are taught that gambling isn't healthy
so what are you truly waiting on?

Releasing fears...
Or
allowing YOURSELF to be vulnerable is scary as f**k?
There's no way around this
But what if, you knew you could come out the other side stronger, wiser, more resilient?
Wouldn't it be worth it?

08/04/2021

Don't think about what can happen in a month. Don't think about what can happen in a year. You cannot control the future. Just focus on the 24 hrs in front of you. Have the destination in mind. Do what you can today to bring you closer to where you want to be. We all have the same 24 hrs, what differentiates you from the rest is how wisely you spend it