12/29/2022
Life's moving currents
“Leadership, like swimming, cannot be learned by reading about it' (Henry Mintzberg). Life... is very much like that. Experiencing, reflecting on the experience is part of the way we learn, gain insights and new perspectives and, in the process, hopefully develop a deeper kind of knowledge.
Experiencing is key
As 2022 comes to a close, I am reflecting on this year's experiences. In the span of five months, I have lost both my older sisters (67 and 69). Three weeks ago, my beloved husband died. Three deaths in five months! I travelled to Europe to tend to one sister, then travelled to Québec city back and forth to spend precious moments in the final weeks of my other sister's life. I drove over 25,000 km in mere months to the hospitals where my husband was being admitted, operated and treated for his melanoma cancer. Ten months separated the diagnosis from his death. I learnt how to tend to his wounds, how to give injections and so much more at another level. Later on, when it became time for him to move to palliative care, we chose to set it up at-home, with regular visits from the palliative care team.
Throughout all this, I continued to work with clients. I tapped into years of mindfulness practice to help me stay in the moment, somatically aware of the stress on my body. I gained a deeper understanding of the importance of tending to one's own wellbeing.
Nurturing Self
Discipline is freedom, mindfulness teacher and dear friend Mona Breton once said while discussing our respective mindfulness practice. It becomes easier as you create the habit of paying attention to your thoughts, how you embody this new presence, observing thoughts and emotions without judgment. Neither good nor bad. Being mindful becomes a deeply engrained way of life. It takes practice, like any discipline. It is also a way of nurturing Self. In his article 'The Practice of Self-Care', Bhaskar Goswami writes 'only when you are well, can you truly take care of your relationships and contribute to life in an uplifting, impactful way'. That is true in our professional and personal lives.
Clients, family and friends often say that they do not have time to add to their busy days. The benefits seem too insubstantial or incremental in a world that often requires immediate results.
Living consciously
'We live, we do stuff and then we're gone' says actor/director Robert Downy Jr. in his documentary titled 'Sr.'
This post is not about the loss. It is about learning how to live consciously and mindfully. My sisters and husband each lived and died in very different ways. I was privileged to bear witness to the death of a truly mindful being. He lived gracefully, serenely with loving kindness. He also had no apprehension about this natural moment of passing. Thus his death fully mirrored how he lived, paying attention to the moment of passage with intention and grace.
Author Bob Dunham writes in his article entitled 'The Time for Rest and Renewal', 'Our culture mistakes learning as understanding ideas, to accumulate 'knowledge'. But to learn wisdom is to learn beyond concepts, to learn in our bodies, in our sense of life, and the very spirit of our living'.
This year more than ever, I celebrate the lessons of self-care, of giving care with compassion and of the significance of living consciously and mindfully.
Wishing you all a very Happy 2023 in gratitude.