12/31/2024
Saying goodbye to 2024, I have learned a lot of things. One of the most important lessons I’ve learned is: don’t stress about life or not achieving your goals.
If you look through my pictures, the first one is from February or March, when I had clear skin and everything seemed fine. Then, reality hit me hard. I started wondering: Have I reached anywhere in life? I’m far from home, my parents are alone, what if my friends in Kerala are avoiding me? Will I be alone? The new place made me feel isolated. I worried about my parents’ health, my studies, and so many other things.
I went through depressive symptoms, anxiety attacks, and countless sleepless nights, feeling isolated and devastated. All the other pictures, except the last one, are from those depressive episodes. At first, I felt even more depressed and insecure about my appearance. I started hiding from cameras, avoiding people, and feeling incredibly uncomfortable in my own skin.
But slowly and gradually, I began to love myself. I started accepting the situation and trusting the process.
I know now that I’m not alone. The only way to truly feel better is to stop isolating and start believing in ourselves. I keep reminding myself: Everything will work out, and everything will be okay.
Depression and anxiety are not things we can always show to the world. Sometimes, even a smiling face is hiding pain. I’ve seen people take pictures of themselves crying and post them as a sign of depression. I’m not blaming them, but some people just can’t express what they truly feel inside.
Don’t depend on or expect anyone in your circle to understand or help you. Only you can help yourself. Only you can change your life.
Happy New Year, everyone. Stay happy and healthy! 😇