08/09/2026
I’m so sorry, love. 🥺
Mamma was so busy today.
Today was your papà's day off, but I had an important meeting that I needed to attend. So while Papà was taking care of your sister and trying to help her sleep, you were crying and looking for Mamma.
And all you wanted was to sleep beside me. 😭🤍
I knew you needed me, but I had something important that I had to do. And even though I knew you were safe with Papà, my heart still felt so heavy.
After everything was done, the guilt hit me.
I kept thinking…
“Did you need Mamma and I wasn’t there?”
“Did you feel like Mamma was too busy for you?”
“Should I have done something differently?” 😔
Mamma wishes she could be there every single time you call for me.
But sometimes, I have responsibilities too. Sometimes I have important things to do, and I have to trust that you are okay even when I can’t be the one holding you.
And that’s one of the hardest parts of being a mother.
We can love our children with our whole hearts and still have moments when we simply cannot be there every second.
But please know this, my love…
You were never forgotten.
You were never less important.
And you were never unloved.
Mamma loves you more than words can explain. 🤍
And seeing you sleeping so peacefully during your afternoon nap made my heart ache a little because I know these little moments won’t last forever.
One day, you won’t cry for Mamma like this anymore.
One day, you won’t need me to help you fall asleep.
One day, you’ll be big enough to do so many things on your own.
So this afternoon, I’m choosing to let go of the guilt and simply be grateful.
Thank You, Lord, for giving me these children.
Please give me wisdom, patience, and strength to balance motherhood, family, responsibilities, and everything You have entrusted to me.
I may not be a perfect Mamma, but I pray that my children will always know one thing:
They are deeply, completely, and endlessly loved. 🤍🙏
I love you, my love.
Mamma is always here. 🥹🤍