12/01/2025
The Day The Mirror Changed
One minute things are rose, your mirror is your friend, then when you least expect it, it drives you round the bend, that young blonde lad that loves you, with a smile white as snow. Not a blemish or a problem, not an anxiety on show, The girls have your attention, for me it was always, a one way street, I had my sport and family, good friends for support, romance was on sleep. Not that I didn't like them, or that I did not care, just my life was very simple. Sport, sport and sport. My life for a girl I simply would not share. I really enjoyed my football, cricket and my darts, I loved to shoot some pool, and building bogey carts, we would play at hide and seek, all the usual stuff. Yes I didn't need a girlfriend in my life I had enough, then I guess it just happened, I opened up my heart, I dated a local lass, then we were very much apart. This love would last a while, two perfect kids as well, then things began to fester, I guess there was holes in our shell, then it all became apparent my mirror was not my friend, that once young lad that smiled, was on a rocky road, Hell Mend. It took me bloody ages and you could say, more than one or two new friends, the truth it wasn't simple, something was driving me round the bend. I just couldn't put my finger, on any probable cause, then I woke up one morning, riddled with blemishes and many flaws, my hairs were getting whiter and my belly grew a lot, that once white toothed young laddie. You could say, that I forgot, it was very problematic and homeless did not help, I met this lovely lady, then it wasn't long till I would YELP!!! I treated her appalling, an absolute disgrace!!! All she ever done, was love me and treat me with great grace. Then I dated like no other, three or four a week, I never knew the magnitude of my problems, as once during the night, only God was all I could seek, then it became apparent, I was not all that very well, I was on a railroad collision, my life was pure hell, my mirror was all broken, all around was broken too, I wasn't very stable, my kids got the brunt of it, sadly but true, so I made myself an appointment, I had to get me sorted out, seek professional help, see what my problems were all about, then the problems were just beginning. My head was in a spin, my first psychiatrist appointment, kicked me on the chin, I guess I really needed, a prospective, a picture of pure distress, she asked me lots of questions, agreed that my head was in a mess. So medication was my answer, well so it would a seem, Them problems just got greater, a nightmare not a dream. So back I went to see her, you could say in a little distress, sat there all so cocky in her little black shiney short wee dress. So sent me back with new meds, these bad boys do the trick, the problem then was simple, I could not raise my prick, boy they were heavy, the side affects were rough, when I went back a third time, I said I've had enough!!! It wasn't my usual, that good looking little bird, it was a very well spoken gentleman, his questions were quite absurd, he asked me all these questions, his pen was on fire, pages after pages, of Darren in the mire. So again I had my paper, hoping these meds will do the trick, hope these ones will at least raise my prick, well I have to say, I'm happy thinking, I could be there, I was in a new relationship, unknown with a right fat c**t, who really did not care!!! This would set me back a while, now penniless for sure, I wasn't any further, in finding that magical wee cure, so another visit prompted, I took a different step, I would see the council experts, thus bringing a whole new footstep, it gave me some vigor, a little bit of hope, I knew that someone was helping. Together I could cope, then the real help was rising, that light was flashing bright. I met this gorgeous lady, I knew straight away, she was right, sure I've been there a plenty, loving every one, the truth was very apparent, the old damaged me was done, today I restarted, I had a better foot, a caring understanding. All my problems I would shoot, I think she was a little startled. I guess for me it was too much, so stupidly I finished things, some things I could not touch, so I soon came to my senses, I was very glad I did, she came to my psychiatrist visit, boy nothing that she hid, Lynne told him absolutely everything, not a corner she did miss, it was a little electric, I guess I wasn't there to take the p**s, well it was that one moment, I just knew that was me, I could finally go home and look myself in the mirror and be happy what I could see. Apparently I have Bi-Polar, well it would certainly answer a few things, I finally had that answer, it hit me quite hard, by jings, but together we would fight it, face everything on the chin, I have to say we are winning, nine great years and I'd do it all again, yes I'd only change a few things, the mistakes that I made, I was an absolute ar****le, that fell well short of the grade, now that I'm all healthy. A great lady by my side, my kids and my family. All my s**t will NEVERMIND!!!
Darren Alexander Gray
