05/06/2026
This was, now, weeks ago, and I’ve waited to share it because I wanted to show it in context of the YouTube video which shows what a fleeting moment this was, but also because I’ve been working behind the scenes with about how I want to show up in a way that feels right and works for my actual riding improvement.
Posting this now, I’ve completely worked through this moment and it feels like years away from my current moment rather than sharing it when I’m still processing.
Just because we work on our mindset, it doesn’t mean that we are perfect, and it doesn’t mean that we don’t have difficult moments where we are scared.
This feeling that you see in this video was the result of a CrossCountry schooling session, that had happened the week before camp. A totally unfortunate accident where I fell off twice, but for me the first fall in particular was scary and quite intense.
Heading off to camp the week after I found myself struggling to get back into the groove immediately. At first I would be myself for not being able to bounce back quick enough (despite the fact that I got back on and continue to jump on the CrossCountry day) but when I was editing this blog I realised that actually this was a really short moment in time and I carried on as normal in minutes.
Everybody struggle sometimes, it’s about how we manage it in that moment and I hope that the YouTube video can show you a bit of that process in real time❤️