15/06/2025
Trigger warning: su***de attempt.
Three years ago today, I made what I then thought was the best decision I could make. I knew the pain I’d felt since childhood, and all the pain I believed I’d caused my loved ones since then, and so I decided to take my final breaths. I thought that it would save everyone I cared about from further pain, as well as myself. Little did I know how wrong I was. I had no idea about what that would’ve put my family and friends through, nor indeed the happiness I’d eventually come to feel (the warmest and most wonderful I’ve ever known). There would of course be difficult days to follow - some so painful, in fact, that I thought I was destined to feel nothing else - but I did the work, and eventually my days got brighter and calmer and more beautiful. I’ve come such a long way since then, and I’d like to extend my love and appreciation to my family, friends, my band and our crew, and always and forever the nhs workers who cared for me during the six days I was in hospital - as well as my recovery through therapy long afterwards. To those who feel that there is nothing else left, I’m here to tell you that you have EVERYTHING to live for. Please please please reach out. People want to hear about and talk you through your pain.
With love, Billy.
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