Leanne Barriball- The Devonshire Shepherdess

09/09/2025

Have you ever had a day when you feel like you just want to give everything up roll over and die?

Sounds dramatic doesn’t it? Sounds like a stupid thing to say when I have a beautiful life which we are creating.

But yesterday this is what came up!

All on my poor husband a barrage of negative self talk came out of my mouth about myself. I was giving up, I was not going to do anything else to get better, I was going to curl up and die. I said some very very horrible things about myself with lots of bad language so I won’t repeat but it was basically along the lines of

I am fed up being fat and disabled!

Then I fell asleep at 7.30pm which I never do I was exhausted from the crying and the yuck coming out of my mouth.

Then 3am came around and this was when I was like “oh crap I really should have stayed up and made sure I had calmed down rather than going to sleep in survival mode.”

You see our brains can only function on what we tell them through our thoughts I told my brain we were going to roll over and die.

But my brain and body then kick into action to do everything in its power to stop that happening. It is our brains job to keep us safe and alive just like in hunter gather days, it’s just that my own thoughts were the saber tooth tiger 🐅

So at 3am I was in pain not just in my normal joints but my whole body was throbbing because if there was danger I should be running not sleeping, see how my poor brain was trying to keep me safe and I did the opposite to what it wanted me to do.

So where did the we need to run away from danger energy go? It created inflammation in my whole body and the pain to go with it. Moving helped I had a little walk around, I moved my shoulders and neck the bits that were hurting the most.

And miraculously I got back to sleep, 😴this is an improvement on 3/4 months ago when once I was awake at this time I was awake and needed to take some anti inflammatories and watch a film.

Roll on this morning and low and behold I had moved into coaching myself mode!

This is where I am currently missing my amazing Neuro-coach as she has some huge family stuff going on at the moment.

Anyways she will be back helping my delete my negative thought patterns before I know it. Until then I can choose to tackle them myself, because this is what I trained as a coach for, myself initially.

I have spoken with a few people today about my episode last night this helps my brain see it’s not a threat any more it was just something that needed to come out.

It was a layer of soul clutter which is absolutely better out than in causing more pain and God knows what else it was doing. By talking it thought I was then able to start choosing how I was going to think about myself instead.

We call this decide in advance (DIA) and over the day I’ve been showing my brain a new way of thinking and believing. Showing myself love and care not over doing things in anyway, being calm.

I have a renewed belief I am going to be ok, that this is always a big sign when I have such a big reaction because it means we have gotten to a new area of thinking and the old thoughts need to be erased.

If I was coaching someone else through last night I would see this as a huge win, but I would have helped them right through it with their emotions etc not let them go to sleep right then 🤦‍♀️

Tonight I am choosing self care as well, winding down after a big session at physio 😂 again my body thinks it was under attack because essentially it was but in the best way possible!

It was a no pain no gain kind of session! I even prayed in the middle of it. I may watch an easy film as well to just really try and help my brain see it’s all good we are safe.

The face mask if of course Tropic, in preparation for our weekend celebrations seeing the new products 🤩

If you’re struggling with intrusive thoughts do you know you can get rid of them? All of them and any kind, we can truly learn to love ourselves from the inside out, thoughts first 😘

If you have as crazy of brain as me feel encouraged it doesn’t always have to stay crazy, unless you want it to of course 😘

08/09/2025

My education today doing a medicines handling course which is mandatory every 5 years if you sell produce under the Red Tractor, Red Tractor hosted by Castle Vets Pets -Launceston & Liskeard

There seems there are still always things to learn even when you have been doing it for 20 years plus years.

My biggest take away which I came to the conclusion of myself was to do everything else in our power to make sure that our livestock are so healthy they just never need antibiotics, or wormers or sprays for flies in the first place.

It renewed my mind and my fire 🔥 to really start doing more to implement regenerative farming on our farm. Working with the soil first then the plants then the animals.

We are already seeing a huge difference with having this mentality rather than the mentality of “we need to produce as much as we can no matter what the cost”

The cost was our animals health and our own health, all because we were led to believe that vets and the government always know best, when it seems they don’t have all the key facts especially around nutrition and mineral/vitamin deficiencies.

So we farmers need to get our heads out of our arses, stop following the crowd like mindless sheep and start thinking about what it is we actually want our farming practices to look like.

For me I want things to be easy, meaning not having the spend time working with sick animals

I want to use the least of any artificial medicine or fertiliser or anything else we can.

I want the farm to be self sustaining in all areas, health finances.

I want family relationships to come first before anything else because if we aren’t happy farmers this is reflected in our farming. That kind of negative energy is not good for anyone.

So just a few goals, we are doing them all but there is still things we can do to make things really work.

06/09/2025

Hands up ladies who love to help other people whether their family, friends or random people you see in the street 👋

I see you, you wonderful women who love so much ❤️ and you want to do more to help but in the process of helping everyone else you yourself are

😢Tired
😢Burntout
😢Spinning to many plates
😢Constantly feeling like time is running out

I hear you 👂

Why do I hear you? Because I’ve just described myself! And this year beyond all other years I’ve had to take a huge step back and focus on me and my health.

This isn’t selfish, this isn’t something I should feel guilty about

Nope

This is NECESSARY

It has been necessary this year for me to put my focus on rebuilding my body from the inside out! It has not gone as I planned, and things rarely do for me now a days. But my thought processes have been ready! Ready to keep going no matter what! I literally can’t give up on myself 🤦‍♀️😂

The Bible says we can make our plans but the Lord directs our steps.

My plan- to get my whole body healthy from the inside out. I thought it would be a simple

A to B exercise

It’s been a 🎢 rollercoaster ride for sure.

But everyday as I tune into my body more and more I know I am getting stronger! I know that an older version of me in my 80s is going to look back and thank God that I did this now.

Because if I didn’t do it now it will no doubt eventually happen, right when I didn’t want it to. That’s what ill health is. Where we didn’t listen for the 100 times before our body is trying to tell us something so it crashes!

This time though this has been my choice as hard of choice as it’s been.

But I’ve ploughed through with my stubborn farm girl attitude because I want to help more people!

I want to enjoy life with other people which can’t happen when we are tired! 😴

Today I had this revelation as I was preparing to have a morning bath 🛁

Right now if I want to help more people get healthier from the inside out, knowing what I know and have learnt, then I have to practice what I want to preach and take care of ME first just for a time until I am better.

Self care is taking care of you, to be able to take care of others better.

We can not love others as much as we want to if we first do not love ourselves 💕

31/08/2025

My mumma and I are bossing September already!

For the first time ever we have prepared and frozen 20 meals to take us through September with room for things like steak 😋 and takeaways as well.

Mum has been holding the cooking fort whilst my hands and arms aren’t very safe to do cooking and I’ve been helping where I can, which was ending in me making a mess. 🤦‍♀️ hindrance not help!

Anyway I had the idea this week to tap into chat GPT (AI) exactly what yummy meats we have on in the freezer our own of course.

Then I typed in all the vegetables and things we liked adding a few bits here and there.

It created 20 easy to prepare meals we can put in the freeze and then defrost and put in a pot to cook!

Yesterday we spent the afternoon doing it and now we don’t have to think about tea for ages 😂😂

It’s the simple things in life which make me excited now a days this is one of them.

Now we get to do all the other fun stuff we end up doing instead 🥳

30/08/2025

As its back to school week I felt to write a little about our journey, and although it's been hard for us both at times I now know it was exactly what we both needed.

I will never regret making that hard decision which scared the life out of me for nearly 2 years afterwards as well.

Choosing to Home Educate Healed Us Both

30/08/2025

There are books which change your life when you haven’t even read the whole thing!

I didn’t need to

This book has opened my eyes to the decimating affects of mineral and vitamin deficiency’s in livestock!

Why are we lacking minerals and vitamins I wonder 🧐

Oh yes because for the last 90 years we have managed to kill the micro life of our soil to the point where it can’t live without some kind of “drug” artificial fertiliser and it’s started desertification! 🌵and making animals sick.

We get droughts because the soil heats up and drives away the rain 💧🌧️

Animals get sick because the plants they are eating do not contain enough or any of the vital vitamins and minerals they need to thrive.

Today my dad asked? Why do we keep getting eye problems the answer

A lack of vitamin A and D, and if there are other minerals lacking which means the body is metabolising either of these that causes an issue as well.

I did a tally from the animal health conditions we have seen on the farm in my life time! Based on what Pat Coleby has observed in her book.

I think it’s safe to say copper might be an issue.

The opposite side of that is that if you try and supplement it you can give to much. Therefore we need more plants/trees/hedges and opportunity for copper to come up through them the natural way.

When you start asking questions like why does this happen? You miraculously start getting the answers 😊

27/08/2025

Happening tomorrow night I am doing a Whatsapp Workshop called Reclaim your time, it starts at 8pm click the link to be added to the group.

https://chat.whatsapp.com/Hw5S0zGfpwd2VIIthL0rZq?mode=ems_copy_t

I will be covering some key Infomation on how you can reclaim your time and help not feel so busy.

If you have thoughts like “ I don’t have time for this” or “ I am to busy for that” I encourage you to jump in and read the messages I post you will hopefully get a fresh perspective.

You will also get the link to my new ebook Reclaim your time and your peace, to go alongside what I teach.

If you can’t make it live no problem still join the group and read the messages when you can 🙂

24/08/2025

Being brave today!

I drove all by myself past 2 miles from our house 😂 for the first time in 6 months I think.

It’s the small wins I grab hold of

Blimey, I was not imaging this year to ever have happened but here we are and my body is being gracious and healing.

I take 1 day at a time because it all depends on how I wake up or if I have even been to sleep but we are getting there. 😴

The funniest part of all of this is I’ve managed to train my brain in such a way I literally can’t give up on myself 🤣.

🙏Even when I’ve prayed the prayers like “I give up I can’t do this anymore”, I am snivelling wreck normally sat on the toilet. 🤦‍♀️

This small voice comes into my mind and says you know you are not going to give up, so get up and let’s keep going.

It’s been slow, it’s been painful emotionally and physically but when I come out of this cocoon I’ve been in I will be a beautiful butterfly 🦋

Don’t give up girls whatever is going on in life right now, find some buddies to hold your arms up for you and keep praying and pushing through 🙏🔥

My ladies who have done this for me you know who your are ⚔️

23/08/2025

Just sitting here minding my own business when Miss Henny Penny pops by! 🐓

Not for long though after the young Labradog 🐶 spotted her, then there was lots of squwaking and flapping Elsie just wanted to play

Currently sorting the landing page for my new free Ebook “Reclaim Your Time and Peace of Mind”

Which is to be given as a free gift to anyone who joins the first of my WhatsApp workshops

💌Reclaim Your Time
Thursday 28th August
📲 https://chat.whatsapp.com/Hw5S0zGfpwd2VIIthL0rZq?mode=ems_copy_t

22/08/2025

Beautiful autumnal morning 🍁

It reminded me of this song from primary school

AUTUMN DAYS

Autumn days when the grass is jewelled
And the silk inside a chestnut shell.
Jetplanes meeting in the air to be refuelled.
All these thing I love so well

So I mustn't forget
No, I mustn't forget.
To say a great big
Thank You
I mustn't forget

Clouds that look like familiar faces
And the winter's moon with frosted rings.
Smell of bacon as I fasten up my laces
And the song the milkman sings

CHORUS
Whipped-up spray that is rainbow-scattered
And a swallow curving in the sky
Shoes so comfy though they're worn out and they're battered
And the taste of apple pie.

CHORUS
Scent of gardens when the rain's been falling
And a minnow darting down a stream
Picked-up engine that's been stuttering and stalling
And a win for my home team

So I mustn't forget
No, I mustn't forget.
To say a great big
Thank You
I mustn't forget

Do you remember this song? It’s funny how our mind can bring up these lovely old memories from different things.

This is my favourite time of year because I was born in September and I always remember being excited to go back to school and then it was soon

Christmas 🎄there I said it 😂

What can you be thankful for today? 🙏

21/08/2025

Today is a “I am staying in my pyjamas all day kinda day”

I haven’t had one for a while, for a few months at the beginning of this year I was wearing them all day everyday. So I have improved from then.

Today I woke up feeling meh…. 😕 Not really sure kind of feelings. I am not sick, not coughing or head achey or anything like that. I am just very low energy, and I find staying in my pyjamas helps me to keep a relaxed feeling, so I don’t push myself too much and I will actually rest all day.

Which is what I’ve done, I had a 2 hour nap before lunch!

And now I have had an hour working on my new Tropic workshop as well, which strangely 🧐 enough is called- “Reclaim your time” ⏰

Because most of the time our excuse for not taking care of ourselves is “I just don’t have time” because I have to do …

Well I am hear to tell you you can change that.

( more details below of how to join)

Now your either reading this and thinking what a lazy cow 🐮

Or your reading this thinking I want/need to be able to have days like that, where when you need to you can literally stop and the world doesn’t stop going around 🌍

The only reason I am able to have days like this now, is because I’ve been making a constant decision for the last few years to prioritise my energy, and a huge part of this has been to be able to manage my time better, so I can do a good job home educating but I can also run farm business and my Tropic business again now as well.

Whilst still Including lots and lots of rest 😴

I have decided to start sharing how I am able to reclaim my time to do everything that I want to do, as well as what I need to do including rest.

I will be doing this in a What’s app group starting Thursday 28th August from 7.30pm.

To join the group click this link.

https://chat.whatsapp.com/Hw5S0zGfpwd2VIIthL0rZq?mode=ac_t

And of course for the first 20 ladies who join this group you will be put into a draw to win some Tropic products 🌺

Because there should always be time to pamper ourselves as well. 💆