Michelle Howarth - Life, Loss & Everything In Between

Michelle Howarth - Life, Loss & Everything In Between Sharing the reality of trying to live after loss ๐Ÿ’š
Working, Parenting and Surviving. The highs, the hard days, and everything in between.

It's not just a mug... โ˜•๐Ÿ’šIt's memories and moments...and now, it's an act of unbelievable kindness too! ๐ŸฅนA few months ag...
18/09/2026

It's not just a mug... โ˜•๐Ÿ’š

It's memories and moments.
..and now, it's an act of unbelievable kindness too! ๐Ÿฅน

A few months ago, my mug from one of our special trips smashed.

Thank you, Team Turner, for remembering, spotting this one on your travels and being so incredibly thoughtful as to buy me a replacement.

Now, every time I use it, it won't just remind me of the wonderful memories from our trip. It'll also remind me of your kindness and how lucky I am to have such lovely people in my life.

It's the little things that mean so much. Thank you! ๐Ÿ’š๐ŸŒป

Forced myself on a walk this morning after school drop off...To then get home feeling dizzy, sick and headache, which tu...
16/09/2026

Forced myself on a walk this morning after school drop off...

To then get home feeling dizzy, sick and headache, which turned into basically just sleeping all day.

It was a lovely morning down south bay, I just wasn't in the right frame of mind to really enjoy it, now I know why.

Note to self....drink more water!!! ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ

And then it was time for Secondary School... ๐ŸฅบShe's gone off this morning nervous, but excited.There was a wobble last n...
09/09/2026

And then it was time for Secondary School... ๐Ÿฅบ

She's gone off this morning nervous, but excited.

There was a wobble last night when the nerves got the better of her and the tears came because she was missing her dad. She reached for her positivity cards and picked out the ones she felt were right for today... and I think they say it all. ๐ŸŒป

Then, after dropping her off and driving home, the biggest, brightest rainbow appeared and stayed with me for the entire journey. ๐ŸŒˆ

Of course my mind went there.

Because today is one of those should have, would have, could have days.

You should have been here to see her in her uniform.

You would have been ridiculously proud.

We could have dropped her off together.

But this is life now.

We miss you. We wish you were here for all of it.

But school still has to happen, she still has to grow up, and the world doesn't stop just because ours changed forever.

So off she goes into her next chapter...

Go smash it, Scarls. I know Dad would be so bloody proud of you, because I am. ๐Ÿ’š๐ŸŒˆ

P.S. we giggled at Raye song on the way to school 'Where's my husband' and Scarlett said 'up there' ๐Ÿ˜…

P.P.S Vicky Oakley she is now your problem 5 days a week! ๐Ÿ˜‚

08/09/2026

And somehow, 7 and a half weeks have gone by...

We've laughed, we've cried, we've held each other's hands... it's definitely been a ride this summer.

It's been long, and at times harder than I expected, but day by day we've made our way through it.

We've had adventures, made memories, had slow days, hard days and really lovely days too.

And now it's time for a new chapter. New routines, new beginnings and another adjustment to figure out.

But together, like always, we'll find our way and make it work for us.

One day at a time. Always and Forever. ๐Ÿ’š๐ŸŒป

This sunflower keeps growing, so thought I'd best put her in the garden waste for recycling, as I can't keep up with her...
01/09/2026

This sunflower keeps growing, so thought I'd best put her in the garden waste for recycling, as I can't keep up with her!

Joking aside what a brill little team mate she is, no fuss, no question just helps me out when asked. Makes a huge difference especially on days when I am feeling anxious and overwhelmed out of nowhere, one job ticked off at least.

๐ŸŒป

31/08/2026

Looking back through some photos and videos last night to settle a debate with Scarlett... ๐Ÿ˜‚

And we came across this absolute cracker from our trip to Finland in 2023.

I'm so thankful we have all these moments captured in photos and videos, they mean absolutely everything now.

But watching this also reminded me just how much I miss laughing like this.

We laughed all the time. Took the mick out of each other, wound each other up and found the funny in the most ridiculous things.

I miss this kind of laughing.

The kind that belonged to us. ๐Ÿ’š๐ŸŒป

Damian Howarth

Wowโ€ฆ the physical effects of grief!Something I don't think we really talk.I've never had loads of hair anyway, and it's ...
29/08/2026

Wowโ€ฆ the physical effects of grief!

Something I don't think we really talk.

I've never had loads of hair anyway, and it's always been very fine. So when it started falling out significantly around May/June last year, I found it really hard to deal with. It became so thin in places that I was wearing it in certain ways just to try and hide it.

I'd lost quite a lot of weight around New Year, which, I'm not going to lie, I wasn't exactly mad about. But the hair loss was different. That really got to me.

I'd brush my hair and end up covered in it. I'd constantly be clearing my hairbrush, and simply running my hands through my hair would leave strands coming out.

Eventually, I went to the doctors and had blood tests to make sure there wasn't anything else going on. Thankfully, everything came back clear and I was diagnosed with Telogen Effluvium, temporary hair shedding that can happen after significant physical or emotional stress.

And looking at it nowโ€ฆ wow.

I'm so thankful that it's growing back. I did notice some shedding again just before summer, but thankfully nothing like last year.

It's just another reminder that grief isn't only something you feel emotionally.

Your body can grieve too.

The exhaustion. The weight changes. The lack of sleep. The aches and pains. The hair loss. Stress showing itself physically in ways you never expected.

We talk so much about the emotional side of grief, but perhaps we need to talk a little more about what it can do to our bodies too. And remember to be kinder to ourselves in these times.

Because sometimes you're not just carrying grief in your heart, you're carrying it physically as well. ๐Ÿ’š

๐Ÿ“ธ Pictures are from this time last year and today!

When you look back through your photos from the week and thinkโ€ฆ this all looks very familiar.I took Scarlett (and Vicky!...
27/08/2026

When you look back through your photos from the week and thinkโ€ฆ this all looks very familiar.

I took Scarlett (and Vicky!) to see where we had our wedding reception all those years ago. And Detective Vicky even managed to track down the horses from our wedding photos! ๐Ÿ˜‚

And then earlier in the week we also had a cheeky visit to The Harbour Bar...if you know you know!

I just wish we could have shared these moments together.

Itโ€™s strange revisiting places that hold such a big piece of your story. The memories are still there, the places are still thereโ€ฆ I just wish you were too. ๐Ÿ’š๐ŸŒป

24th Augustโ€ฆ 2019 & 2026.Oh, how life has changed so muchโ€ฆ and yet, somethings not at all. ๐ŸŒณ๐ŸžSeven years between the two...
24/08/2026

24th Augustโ€ฆ 2019 & 2026.

Oh, how life has changed so muchโ€ฆ and yet, somethings not at all. ๐ŸŒณ๐Ÿž

Seven years between the twoโ€ฆ and a whole different future ahead of us. ๐Ÿ’š๐ŸŒป

15/08/2026

London 2026

Shopping ๐Ÿ›
Show ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿฟ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ‘‘
Sightseeing๐Ÿ‡ฌ๐Ÿ‡ง

Oh and sweating....35ยฐC ๐Ÿฅต

Loved it, spending together making memories, always grateful for that.

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