04/06/2026
Brain dump rant incoming.... 🙈
Just a bit of a personal reflection that I had today during a 30 minute drive home, completely unrelated to videography / content tips.
Thoughts that have been rattling around my head lately that for some reason I've decided to share for once.
I was thinking about around 2015, back then, any spare minute I had went straight into playing computer games with my mates. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that, it is how a lot of people switch off. But for me, I was sinking endless hours and evenings into it, sometimes until the early hours of the morning, and looking back, it was definitely to the detriment of my relationship at the time. Today, that computer just sits there collecting dust.
A few years later down the line, my mindset started to shift. I eased off the gaming and put that time into my car instead, teaching myself mechanics. That naturally turned into starting a hobby automotive YouTube channel, which got me geeking out over cameras, filming, and learning how to edit.
Fast forward to 2024, and that whole process evolved into starting a videography business. If I could go back ten years, I would love to give myself a shake and say you could be doing something way more productive with your time.
Don't get me wrong, you absolutely need downtime. Whether it is a film, gaming, reading, or spending time with family, you need that one thing that lets you totally switch off for a few hours. It is just about getting the balance right, which seems to get harder as you get older and life gets busier.
Honestly, my head constantly feels like it has a hundred and one things jumbled up in it. Looking at a calendar packed with a full-time job, family life, and running a business on the side can bring on a lot of anxiety. There are times I look at the workload and think, "How the hell am I going to manage this? Is it getting too much? Do I need to call it quits?" My wife regularly has to give me a reality check when I am taking on too much.
But the thing is, when you actually accomplish something difficult, you get a massive buzz from it. You end up chasing that feeling by taking on the next thing, trying to find that tipping point between "the grind" and hitting a complete breaking point. It leads to some strange situations; like being on holiday in Crete a couple of weeks ago, sitting in the shade trying to finish off a client edit, and (rightfully so) getting evils from my wife for bringing work with me. I was even filming my own social content while there because I felt guilty for not posting. It is probably a bit unhealthy, butaybe it also shows the commitment?
Sometimes I ask myself why I do this additional work. Why not just do the basics, bin off the side hustle, and enjoy the extra spare time? The truth is, my mindset has changed so much over the years that I wouldn't even get any enjoyment from sitting playing a computer game for eight hours straight anymore. Being busy is just my normal now, and achieving things and learning new skills is what feels rewarding.
Just wanted to share an honest look at the reality of trying to build things while balancing life. I am doing fine by the way 😊 and happy to learn if anyone else out there finds themselves in a similar boat sometimes?
(Oh and apologies for my legs🙈)
Cheers
Kev
