29/05/2026
Everything in my life happens in cycles. This cycle has been happening since I was fourteen years old. I am now thirty-eight that means this cycle has been happening for TWENTY-FOUR YEARS! ⤵️
I did REALLY GOOD this time!
This is how things usually go:
1. I get in a relationship.
2. My relationship gets destroyed (this usually has something to do with my baby daddy).
3. My baby daddy comes in. (he now comes in by saying he wants to see his daughter & by him "pretending" to be a good father there's NO WAY I can stop him from coming in again).
4. He gets access to me & R**ES ME for some time (there's NO WAY I can stop him).
5. I find a way to get out/get away from him.
6. There is then a cooling off period. (I don't want to be with my baby daddy so he has to find another woman to be with to cover up the fact that he's RA**NG ME! He either gets in a relationship with another woman or goes to jail during this time. During this time is where I have time to try & hurry up & get in another relationship. There is always a time period where he cools off & at that time I try to hurry up & find another man in order to protect myself from him).
7. He finds out who I'm in a relationship with & figures out a way to break up that relationship. This happens even if he's in a relationship with another woman.
8. He first begins ra**ng me while he is still in a relationship with another woman. Being in a relationship with another woman helps him to cover the r**e up because on the outside it looks like he doesn't want to be with me. If I speak out against it he will make it look like I'm jealous of his relationship, he's with someone else & he's just trying to see his daughter. In this way he can R**E ME whenever & how many times he wants & I have NO WAY OUT of being R**ED!
9. He will eventually leave the woman he's with to be with in a relationship with me again. He can't stop sexually abusing me & he's never been faithful to ANY woman that he's been in a relationship with so his relationships never last. I also can't get married or stay in a relationship with another man no matter HOW HARD I TRY because it's literally impossible for me to break out of the cycle of sexual abuse.
10. I find a way to get out/get away from my baby daddy & try to find another man. No man that I have been with has ever protected me from being sexually abused by my baby daddy so the cycle of sexual abuse starts all over again. There is NO WAY OUT OF IT! The sexual abuse is FOR LIFE!
I am VERY PROUD OF MYSELF because this is the FIRST TIME in my life something has shifted in this cycle. This time I went through step 1 & step 2 but when it came to step 3 because I PUBLICLY fought SO HARD (for YEARS ON END) for my baby daddy not to have a way in so he could get to me so my baby daddy wasn't able to do step 3!
Something has finally SHIFTED! This is the FIRST TIME in my life this has EVER happened! This time I skipped step 3, 4 & 5! It went directly to step 6! I didn't go through steps 8,9 or 10 either!
This has NEVER happened before! NEVER IN MY LIFE have I not been r**ed & it just went to step 6 the cooling off period. Being that my baby daddy has gone to California, it's now in the cooling off period.
I am SO PROUD OF MYSELF because I fought MY HARDEST not to be r**ed again & it's FINALLY working! It has taken me ALL MY LIFE & for me to build a business but it's FINALLY working!
I have ALWAYS been R**ED! I have ALWAYS been SEXUALLY ABUSED! This is the first time in my life where it didn't happen.
I wouldn't shut up long enough for him to sneak in so my baby daddy couldn't come in & r**e me again. He couldn't cover the r**e up pretending like it's love or a relationship this time because I wouldn't stop calling him out online every single day! I wouldn't SHUT UP so he couldn't R**E ME again!
I am SERIOUSLY so PROUD OF MYSELF!
I honestly can't believe I DID NOT GET R**ED again!
This is a MIRACLE!
SheRose Network is the best thing that has ever happened to me. This Network has changed my life FOREVER!
I have NEVER not been r**ed! I was SO CLOSE to my baby daddy coming in & RA**NG again!
These are the things that I have been fighting through while the world was reaching out to me for help. The world was begging me to preach & prophecy while I'm fighting against several groups of people in front of the WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD not to be R**E AGAIN! Those same people reaching out to me for help WOULDN'T EVEN HELP ME while I'M HELPING THEM! Instead they wanted me to focus on their issues (for FREE) while I'm CURRENTLY fighting against several GROUPS of people NOT TO BE TRAPPED back in a LIFETIME of R**E ! Some people did help! Some people wanted to help but didn't have it to help & that's ok! To the ones who didn't even want to pay for their own sessions (for me to help them) I have NO HELP FOR THEM! Why would I EVER want to help them!? This is what made me leave Christianity all together. After going through this I wanted NO PARTS OF IT! After going through this I couldn't unsee the level of EVIL in (most) christians!
I lost my job of nineteen years, I almost went homeless, I starved & went without food, for years I went without transportation, I had to walk, I went without lights, I went without water, at times I couldn't take a bath & even had to p*e in the tub. I went without money, I lost my marriage, I wasn't able to travel across the world to minister, I had to stop creating shows because I couldn't travel. At times I couldn't wash my clothes, I couldn't do my hair, I had to stop preaching because I haven't had the money that it takes to minister. I lost money but this time I DIDN'T LOSE MYSELF!
I APPRECIATE the people who CONFIRMED PROPHECY! I APPRECIATE the people on SheRose Network who understand that this WHOLE TIME I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING not to get TRAPPED back into a lifetime of sexual abuse! I appreciate the people who didn't JUDGE ME for being a Pastor & being RIGHTFULLY angry! To the point of even cussing out GOD for being put through this level of TORMENT & TORTURE just because I want to live my life right & keep my body committed to GOD by saving myself FOR MARRIAGE!
I can't believe that I kept my celibacy! I can't believe I kept MY BODY! I can't believe that I did not DIE in this! I'm honestly SHOCKED that I did it!
I REALLY DID IT! 😭
I'm SO PROUD OF MYSELF! ❤️ (see comments)
