18/08/2026
I’m all out.
I’m all out of tears, words and things I can do.
It’s over and there’s an empty feeling that I can’t describe that is sweeping over me.
And the worst thing is that I feel like I’m fighting this desolate emptiness alone.
Emotionally and mentally, you checked out a while ago and I’ve been fighting..
Alone.
Utterly and completely alone.
Crying my eyes out asking why..
And there’s never been an answer.
I don’t know why you gave up.
I don’t know why you turned away.
All I know is that I have to suck it up now and fight for myself..
Because we are gone.
Any hope we had died when you gave up.
Why couldn’t you hold on?
Why couldn’t you try?
Wasn’t it- us- worth it?
I’m realizing now that I may never understand or have the closure on why you quit on us.
And I have to be okay with that.
I will be.
I’m going to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart and carry it out of your life and rebuild.
I deserved better, and we both know it.
Maybe one day you’ll look back and realize that I wasn’t asking you to be perfect.
I was asking you to care.
To fight beside me instead of watching me fight alone.
To choose us when things got hard instead of choosing the door.
I would have walked through hell with you if you had only reached for my hand.
But I finally understand that I can’t keep setting myself on fire trying to keep a love alive that you already abandoned.
So, no..
I’m not giving up on us.
You did that a long time ago.
I’m giving up trying to convince you that we were worth saving.
There’s a difference.
And as much as it breaks my heart to finally let you go, I know there will come a day when these tears dry and the pieces of me find their way back together.
I’ll smile again.
I’ll love again.
And someday, someone will hold my heart and never make me beg them to stay.
Until then, I’m going to do for myself what I spent so long trying to do for us..
Fight.
Because you may have stopped choosing me,
but I’m finally choosing myself.
And this time,
I won’t give up.
I’m worth that and so much more.
|ravenwolf