04/11/2025
There’s an emptiness that never really goes away after losing you. It’s softer now, not the kind of pain that takes my breath away, but the kind that quietly sits with me — always there, like a shadow that never leaves. It’s the space love used to fill, and though it hurts, I’ve learned to live with it. Not to fight it. Not to bury it. But to carry it as proof that you were real, that you mattered, that what we had was something worth missing.
I used to think grief was about trying to let go. Now I know it’s about learning how to hold on differently. You’re no longer here in the way you used to be, but you show up in other ways — in the way I handle challenges, in the patience I try to have with people, in the little habits I didn’t realize I inherited from you. I catch myself using your sayings, giving advice the way you once did, and in those moments, I smile because I can feel a part of you living through me.
You taught me things I didn’t even know I was learning at the time. You showed me that real strength isn’t loud — it’s quiet, steady, and kind. You showed me what it means to stand tall even when life doesn’t go your way. And you taught me that doing the right thing isn’t about being noticed; it’s about being true to who you are. That’s your legacy, Dad — not the big things that everyone saw, but the small things that built the foundation of who I am.
I think about the times I took you for granted — how I thought you’d always be there to pick up the phone, to fix what was broken, to make everything seem less scary. Now, when I face something hard, I stop and ask myself, “What would Dad do?” And somehow, the answer always comes. It’s never loud, but it’s always clear.
Dad, I remember you not just because I miss you, but because you’re part of everything I am. You live in my choices, in my words, in the person I try to be every day. You taught me that love isn’t about holding on to what’s gone — it’s about living in a way that honors what we had. And that’s what I try to do, every single day.
You may not be here anymore, but your love still guides me — steady as ever, like a compass pointing me home.