19/05/2020
Its been a long time,
And I am not happy anymore.
I don't know how to say it but,
Just for once I want to laugh like before.
I am tired of my own thoughts,
I am tired of pretending.
Fairytales are a myth for sure but,
Just for once I want to experience a happy ending.
These days are eating me up,
I am done convincing my heart.
Its impossible to do it but,
Just for once I want to go back to the start.
I feel like I am sinking,
And no one is there to give a hand.
I am very bad at expressing but,
Just for once I want someone to understand.
I am very harsh on myself,
This soul is having scars.
I always talk to the moon but,
Just for once I want to love the stars.
I miss the echoes of my laughter,
This sadness is unloved.
I am standing on a rope of betrayal but,
Just for once I want to feel loved.
The same story is replaying every night,
I want to live and not just survive.
I am dying from inside but,
Just for once I want to feel alive.