20/10/2024
Today (20th October 2024) completes my 10 years as a university student (studying Physics). I took my first class as a Physics undergraduate on 20th October 2014 at the University of the Punjab, and in these 10 years, so much happened. There have been a lot of ups and downs that I have gone through and I can't possibly explain all the phases that I went through during these years.
I don't know what the future entails for me. I may be able to stay in academia (which is my dream). Alternatively, it may happen (I hope not) that I have to leave academia due to a lack of jobs and/or a higher salary. Regardless of what the future entails, I want to cherish the moments in these 10 years when I was able to appreciate the beauty and power of theoretical physics. It is a euphoric experience when you can see how big and powerful results come out of innocent-looking equations (and sometimes, inequalities) using nothing but maths (and some physical intuition).
On the other hand, I also want to cherish the moments when I couldn't understand things. Those nights, when I was doing the same calculation, again and again, to see where the mistake was, were also very frequent in these 10 years (sometimes it is the typo in the book and your calculation is fine). The moments of confusion, doubt, frustration, and occasionally feeling like an imposter in this field are parts of the journey of studying theoretical physics, as these moments bring a lot of learning with them.
I grew up in an environment where being a theoretical physicist is a very alien concept. Despite this fact, I embarked on this journey due to my own curiosity and efforts, and with help from some other people. These people include my family (especially my late father) and some people that I found during this journey (too many people to name here).
If I am able to stay in academia, let's see what the next 10 years look like (assuming that I will be alive in the next 10 years). Let's keep the tradition alive and keep celebrating the power of theoretical physics in the upcoming years as well. Cheers.