26/06/2024
Oh my God, why did you take away my father, Madut Mayiik Bol? He struggled so hard to feed us during the civil war between Sudan and South Sudan in 1991. Even during the famine in 1998, you never gave up on us. And you never took anything from others wrongfully; you relied solely on your own resources, driven by the strong heart you had for your family. You hoped that when we grew up, we would take on the same responsibilities. Now, we have grown up and were ready to take care of you, but you didn't wait to see how we would manage. You believed we would become the people of tomorrow, which is why you put us into schools and supported us until we became educated. In this short time left for us to repay you, you did not wait.
Father, the difficulties I faced without you were unimaginable, but I managed to reach here. Now, you have left me in darkness. Why didn't you wait for me to finish my studies so I could take full responsibility for you and the family, just as you did for us when we were young? I can't believe you are gone. Let this be a dream. For me, father, without you, this world is meaningless.
The sadness of losing you my father, Madut Mayiik Bol, while being far away from you is overwhelming. It feels like a part of my soul has been ripped away. Being distant only magnifies the grief, as I am unable to be with you and my family, to mourn together, and to find solace in their presence. The pain of not having been there to say goodbye, to hold your hand, and to thank you for all you did for us is unbearable. Your absence leaves a void that cannot be filled, and the physical distance makes it even harder to cope with the loss. Every moment is a reminder of your sacrifice and love, and being unable to honor you in person adds to the profound sorrow I feel sorry father.
i don't even think i will going to meet you again because of they way you left here earlier is better that sickness was took me and leave you to the family. now for me no more schooling no more studies any more they people i was struggling for is father and mother and now father has gone in that way who can i be here for? even though i didn't task or drink wine since i was born in this case i must be drunker man this life have no balance