20/11/2023
Yeah, so i got baptised last Saturday. Amen to that 😇 Thank you to Fr.Simon, my Godfather, and everyone else who helped make it happen😊
To be honest, i used to have strong Catholic faith when I was a kid, all throughout high school. Then I started to stray away from Christianity during my uni years up until the days I had cancer. That's almost 10 years.
But that doesn't mean that I didn't believe in God. It's just that I tried other ways to connect with God through meditations, teaching of Buddhism, Islam, Confucius, Rumi and even through my own Iban culture of workshipping God. I even do crazy stuff like astral travelling in order to connect with God.
Anyway, being diagnosed with cancer changed all that. I really thought I'm gonna die for real and constantly seek the meaning of life and life after death.
And as I seek answers to these questions, the answer came to me, which I felt throughout all the cells and being of my body, and it was during a moment of greatest pain and suffering while I'm being hospitalized. For almost a full day, i suddenly acquired powerful imagination, where anything I imagined, good or bad, becomes real right in front of my eye.
So of course, i play around with "this gift" as it was fun too :) but one of the most powerful moment for me was when I had the thought of imagining what Jesus and Mary looks like, and they instantly shows up in front of me, wearing white and shining robe. There were no words said, just that Jesus sits down beside me and touches my thigh and then left with Mother Mary.
That's when I felt God's healing and also him giving me the purpose of my life; that as I am healed, I will help other cancer patients heal as well.
Indeed, on 29 Sep, my latest scan doesn't show any cancer cell anymore. Yes, i do a lot of stuff alongside chemo and immunotherapy, but in a way, I choose to also believe that I am healed through the power of God.
So thank God all these. May I live a long life, deepen my faith and help many others who are suffering too 😇🙏