18/02/2026
ANGRY AT GOD?
Growing up, I had a friend that was really dear to me. So dear that when he got sick, I said to God; “if he dies I would die too”.
But something strange happened after he actually died. I cried when I heard the news but it was a Wednesday and I remember going to church that evening and even laughing while watching some funny videos that night.
The next day was Thursday (Evangelism day), so I went on Evangelism.
To those around me, I seemed to have moved on but for years after his passing I literally couldn’t breathe whenever I tried to think or talk about him.
It was as though my heart was going to explode if I faced the reality of that grief. So I turned away from that shattering reality and escaped to a world in my mind.
I wouldn’t even speak to God about it. Because subconsciously, although I still loved God, I was furious at Him. The problem was, I was angrier at myself than I was at Him.
Angrier at myself because I knew, deep down, that it wasn’t God's fault my friend died. If anything, it was mine.
That truth, although painful, eventually saved me from that dark period of my life because I was able to turn to God instead of away from Him
Even when I was upset or still didn’t understand, I stayed in His presence. Everyday.
Even on days when my heart was burning and my legs felt like they would cave in, I didn’t miss a church service.
Because I knew that the only one who could really heal me from the intense pain I was in was God. And He did.
Are you going through something difficult today? Do you have something you blame God for or think He was negligent about?
I tell you unequivocally today that God is good and He is on your side.
Your adversary is the devil and your sure bet against him is God. So no matter how you feel, turn to Him and stay with Him.
Backsliding because you are angry at God is going to the devil; the one who is actually responsible for the pain you are in.
