14/08/2022
Growing up, I saw this movie where a woman travailed in labour๐๐๐๐๐๐
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I'd like to relate Fear to a dark room where negatives are developed๐๐๐โบ๏ธ
Yes, her countenance spelt pain, anguish and agony๐
There and then, I made up my mind not to have children. I shared with my Sisters and they laced in with the typical "God forbid".
But My Momma got a whiff of it!
Just like yesterday, I remember her waking me up and talking me into reversing that confession ๐ค๐ค๐ค.
The many "repeat after me" .
Oh, I love My Momma๐๐๐๐๐
I did reverse it to give her peace.
But this seed of fear grew and made its way into my everyday life๐
I did fight it, only on promptings.
NYSC happens and ulcer came knocking, by now, the fear of conception and delivery has blown to Fear of death!!!!!
How I battled ulcer PPA! .
You'd think I feared to get married?.
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No dear, I am full of love and
I couldn't have bottled it.
And you know that God created emotions, right?
He invented those nerve endings that magnify pleasure
I needed a Man, a good Man๐๐๐๐
Stay with me.
This night, I'd had medications and was just going to put my head down, then I began feeling like I was somewhat suffocating!!!!!
I managed to sit up and then I began addressing the spirit of Fear.
I understood I'd made so much room to nurture it, so I got really provoked that I let it linger this longโบ๏ธโบ๏ธโบ๏ธ
Marriage happens, chaperoned with pregnancy, and the Fear re-visited!!!
Reminding me of my confessions of not having children and the uncertainties of child birth!!
I bled point in my first pregnancy and Mr Fear reminds me yet again, how I should give up on this.
I saw firsthand, how one will chase one thousand.
And two, ten thousand.
Pregnancy made me confront my fears again.
Then "Mr worry" crept in, the many "what if(s).
Each time I got on this street, I'd be reading about women that lost their lives during childbirth!๐๐.
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Then I would pray and call forth my unborn child...
We surely do not look like the things we've been through.
So we fought our way through those fears, with proofs of our Kids๐ค๐ค๐ค
๐ค๐ค๐ค๐คMr Fear and Worry visit on a daily
Engaging in war has become normal.
And so the Word of God has been my stand by.
Day2 Storytelling Challenge...
"The one thing you struggle with"
God has not given us the Spirit of Fear, but of Power, of Love and of a Sound mind.
What are you afraid of?
Picture it....
Now, magnify God over that Fear.
You are more than a conqueror.
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Repost from last year.