
10/10/2025
Lots of thoughts are running through my mind tonight. I haven’t spoken publicly about what’s been happening these past years, but perhaps my silence and distance from the camera said enough.
This is a story about scars: the ones you see, and the ones you don’t. Today, a doctor told me I might have something that shouldn’t be left to grow. She did a biopsy, and now I wait for the results. Waiting is hard.
I’ve had keloids for years. The one on my ear took over almost everything, and even after the second surgery, it never really went away. Now the biopsy is on my face, and I can’t help but wonder what happens if it turns into a keloid. Last one grew fast.
Some of you, even family, have asked me to go out and enjoy these days in Lima. But the truth is, I’ve been hiding a bit, from fear, from uncertainty, and from the thought of starting all over again.
Still, writing helps. Maybe it’s nothing. Maybe it’s something. Maybe it’s just another scar that will teach me something new about patience, about healing, and about what it means to keep showing up.
Diary of a vacation photographer in Amsterdam. October 9th, 2025 while on vacation in Lima.