14/08/2025
When the phrase "if he wants to, he will" hits you like a ton of bricks
I was with a man for ten years who I thought I'd marry. We both had intentions of being married one day and knew we were dating for marriage. We talked about how we would absolutely one day be married to each other. I would randomly send him ring ideas and insisted he didn't need to spend as much as the 3 month rule, which he tried to insist on doing. We lived together, had children together, while I waited for a ring. Our relationship soured, a lot of issues and resentment but I still was in the mindset we would marry. He passed away in 2020, age 36.
I reconnected with my best friend from high school who was recently divorced and had lost his girlfriend of 3 months. We were both mourning and were leaning hard on each other. Spent a year in a situationship and made it official, had a baby and moved in together, will be celebrating 3 years officially together next month.
I still dreamt of marriage while his first marriage soured the idea for him. He insisted he would never again get married. Over the years, we would randomly discuss it and recently he decided he didn't want to keep me from experiencing everything I wanted, he saw his future with me by his side, and he would consider a civil ceremony. Now he is talking about getting legally married. I love this man so much, he is truly my best friend, we have so much history and such a strong connection, no one knows me like he does and I know him like the back of my hand.
I never thought I'd have the chance to be engaged at this stage of my life, especially with him 😭 I am over the moon. This experience has also had me in my feelings about how my late partner would have done this if he wanted to. There was always an excuse and something I needed to fix in order to make it happen, he dangled it in front of me constantly. It makes me feel like what is meant to be is what will happen. And here we are.
Ring is 1.91 c, pear, H color, VS2, in 14k yellow gold cathedral setting size 8.5 US. I got it yesterday and cannot stop staring and taking pics 😍
