06/09/2026
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I hated living more than anything.
There were so many times I questioned if it was worth everything I had to go through. As a daughter, a friend, and a person, was I really that bad or evil to experience all of this?
The better days I looked forward to every time I woke up only drained so much of me. What was the point of breathing if it was always unstable and never calm?
I just didnโt understand. I got so tired of trying to understand. The thoughts that consume me won, and the moment they did, I didnโt want to close my eyes.
I wanted to know what it means to be alive, of actually living.
I may not be as innocent as a child, but I am not bad or evil.
As a daughter, I make wrong decisions. As a friend, you canโt always count on me, but I will always try to be there. As a person, it is just my first time living, too.
I donโt have to figure everything out at once. Iโll figure it out as I live through each day.
๐ชถ| Den
๐ป| Christian Reed Varquez