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24/04/2020

If you feel like you want to cry, don't try to stop it.
It's about time to let it all out.
All the hurt feelings inside,
No one else would be suffering like you are.
When it's too much to bear, just let it out.
You don't really need to care about others.
You are the one who is hurting, right?
Just let the tears fall down, just let the tears wash away the pain in your heart.
The more you hold it in, the more you hurt.
Tears are necessary, the sign of weakness even though you are suffering really badly.

I know that I should not love you anymore.
I understand that our love has ended and it's not right to hold on to you or pull you back.
You won't stay, no matter what.
But i have one last favor to ask.
It's the only thing i want.
Can you still keep my love we had in your heart?
Cause I'm not ready to stand over yet.
Can you keep my love to where it was?
Even if you have already had someone new.
Can you keep my love to your heart for a little longer.
I'm not ready to take it back yet but if you ever feel weary please remember that you still have my love right where it used to be in your heart.
I know that i should not bother you anymore.
I understand that our dreams has to come to an end.

02/04/2020

Elegy: Amidst The Pandemic
By: Philographistes

The darkness finally came to test our faith
All of a sudden everything has changed– Laughter and smiles becomes sighs and cries
Eternity's sorrow amidst of silence

Everyone's shirking; follows social distancing
Many leaves been fall but most keeps on fighting
COVID19 ruthlessly ruined our lives
But makes us all unite.

Stop all the beep of bus
Fear us without our mask
Still we're valiant--In the name of God

Cough! Cough!

Cough! Cough!
Help! My throat feels rough
Cough! Cough!
Oh no, death toll is at the top
I can hear the pleas of infected
And smell the co**se and dead.

Cough! Cough!
It must be tough
Huff! Huff!
Hands are clasped
Praying for the healing
Begging to stop killing

One day, all your fears will fade in the air
Flowers will bloom and ocean will be clear
Memories of pandemic horror
Will remain behind those doors
salute for the unfortunates
who failed to fight the sickness
your battle is over
now, there's no coughing anymore.

02/04/2020

I N T E R N E T L O V E

Before, I'm just a silent lonely girl
Until I met him who I never dreamed at all
Suddenly I kept aloof from other boys without knowing I'm starting being loyal - to someone I never owned.
Everytime we have a conversation it's like the moon and sun come together to paint the sky with the most amazing colors and hues.

He make my life worth living. He's the reason of all my happiness. He cheer me up on my hardest days. He always there willing to comfort me when the problems come. But I just met him online and reality always slaps me that he hate long distance relationship. Sometimes I don't understand why I keep pushing myself to someone who can't love me back.
Even I'd know that he's like other boys - playing girl's heart, I still like him. But then he frankly said, “ You don't deserve a man like me. You deserve someone who can match your loyalty, it's not me.”

He wants to cut the strings that connects us and I'm not that brave enough to fight. Im afraid to take the risk all the time. And all I have to do is to move on and accept the truth, maybe he's not really meant for me. WE JUST MEET BUT WE WILL NEVER BE DESTINED FOR EACH OTHER .

02/04/2020

As the sun rises
The flower blooms
And the birds fly freely–cherishing the freedom that almighty God had gave.
The rooster crows as it welcome the another beginning.
The sun's rays touch her skin enough for her to open her sparkling eyes–tears were shed as she realized how lucky she is for another life.

'Every encounter on earth is a test and it's up to u how to overcome it.'

Everyone see her strong side —but do you know what's in her mind and what it feels like?
Every time she showed her smile there was a hidden pain that was straining her inside.

Do you see the pain in her eyes?

Do you see her captivated smile turned into cries?

Do you know how she handle all the negative thoughts that keeps on screaming in her mind?

I think– you don't.

You always see her strong side

You always see her cute smile

You always see her sparkling eyes—but you didn't even know how her pillow became wet every night, how the pillow let her cry not so loud all the time.

02/04/2020

Something's Missing?

One night, the stars started to rise
Embracing the cold breeze of night
As they brightened up the sky– with sparkling doubts
There was a little hope enlightened someone's mind

Centuries had been passed
Still it isn't enough to take away the memories that last
Many waves slaps the shore
Still I am here waiting for more

You are the Missing fragment,
The broken piece that I want to fix
But then you are like the codes– you're complicated yet worth it

I'm was too focus on my way
I forgot I crossed over your path day by day
Then I consumed your love too much– now I'm ur prey
I was tamed by your thoughts –you made my doubts wash away

Strange feelings awakened my peace, one night
Trying to tell something like I'm gonna lose if I fight
I was too dumb for I'm willing to take a risk– what I think is right
Then, fantasizing that you'll save me coz you're there as my knight

Suddenly the truth unfolds in an unexpected time
The reality slaps me with my coated hope –you will never be mine
In just a blink everything seems clear and fine
I'm now contented of who I am, of who I have in my lifetime

Finally, I found the missing piece
–myself.

02/04/2020

It's almost seven months since I found myself looking at someone who doesn't see me.
Seven months of hoping that one day he'll notice my existence.
Seven months of visiting his timeline,
Hoping that even one (shared)post of him is about me.
It's almost seven months and I should forget what I felt for him, It's torture.
In seven months,
I almost explode everytime our eyes meet.
I lose my strength when he look into my eyes.
And yes, My hidden Feelings is constantly growing. I'm fragile –I was hurt secretly too.
They say, "Having a crush on someone is just normal." But is it normal to feel hurt everytime I see him with other girls?
I don't have the right to feel jealous. Besides, we don't have any communication. I'm just one of people who love the stars–like him

And I'm one of the victims of One Sided Love.

02/04/2020

When I was just 13,
I get too attached to a guy I met online.

When I was 14,
I felt something that I didn't expect. I always seek his attention to the point that I create a dummy account just to stalk him-how crzy I am? HAHA

And now I'm 15,
Still he's the one even he already left me.
Even it hurts me so much before 😆
I tried my best just to forget him but I can't.

1 month left and I'm turning sixteen
I can't keep this feelings to myself anymore
But this ain't the right time yet to take the risk.

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