02/01/2026
My father died last night. He was diagnosed with cancer 3 years ago. Since then I was mentally preparing for the inevitable. Rehearsing in my mind over and over again on what I should do if the time of his passing would finally come. And when I saw him take his last breath during his final moments, thank God, I did not crumble. I was able to say my parting words: That we, his family loves him, and I assured him about taking care of my mother. That he lived a fulfilled life. That all of his children got good education and he should be proud. And finally ask God for forgiveness.
His last life mission was to attend my sister's wedding 2 weeks ago. And I'm so glad he witnessed it.
Here are some things my father did for me that I will never ever forget:
When I had a serious ear health issue 3 years ago, my father always checked on me in my room every morning. Checking if I was still alive during my hardest time in the recent years. He would always prepare a malunggay+banana smoothie for breakfast until I felt better. All while having a more serious health issue himself.
My father always supported my career as a content creator/gamer, always showing enthusiasm whenever I tell stories about it over lunch or dinner. He greaty influenced me on how I did decisions regarding my work.
He always valued trust, loyalty, and quality of work when he was still in the Philippine Army so when I started becoming a somewhat successful YouTuber and got lot of emails for gambling promotions, he consistently reminded me to not do them. As destroying other people's lives are not worth the money and that building relationship (pakikisama) with people in my community (viewers) is always better and much more rewarding.
My father was not a perfect father to us. But he changed for the better in his final years and that is what matters the most.
Rest in Peace, Pa. We will meet again. Until then, I will live my life to the fullest. Dont worry I will always follow your request to love my mother and siblings. Thank you for the love and wisdom you gave.
Farewell for now.
