07/01/2025
"kaya mo paba?" my friend asked
"*sobs*" instead i cried in front of them,
crying doesn't mean i am weak, crying in front of them is the bravest thing i did. Showing this side of mine is unpredictable, because -
I am always happy, smiling, laughing, making them laugh, acting strong- but there's another side of the page they didn't have time to check or to see. They always see me as the jolly one, yet behind those smiles, laugh i gave it's the opposite.
Therefore,
I am able to cry in front of them without telling any further explanation why. I just cry. She patted my back and i looked up.
I just now realized it's between Me and I, Infront of a Mirror saying I'm still okay, even though it's not. No one was there for me, except the mirror in front of me. I smile and said to myself
"We can do this" I wiped all the tears, and smile again. You are strong, you are precious and love. It's just no one understands you, and no one was there comforting you, with words you said when you are on their side at their lowest, that you wish you've heard when it's you are now at your lowest.
There are the time that the world is so selfish, because of It's irconicness doings to all of us. Yet he's still there guiding us.
-Solace 🦋