Mama Panda Diaries

18/03/2026

18/03/2026

Someone asked me once
what the hardest part of losing a child is.
They expected me to say the funeral.
Or the hospital.
But it’s not that.
It’s the random everyday moments that are the hardest.

20/02/2026

Imagine getting to heaven and hearing an unfamiliar voice yelling “MOMMY” 💕💚

01/02/2026

It takes a village...
not just to raise a child,
but also to grieve one.

05/01/2026

January reminder 💚

Before work, school drop-offs, and full calendars take over, here’s a reminder to carry into the new year 💪

16/06/2024

Happy Father's Day 💙

01/11/2023

Every night 💚👼🏻✨

19/10/2023

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24/10/2022

Dear Mom,

I am still here. I am here for you when desperation creeps in between the spaces of our new realities. I am not gone. Every tear you shed, I collect it. I gather the rain, and to each drop I give life to the memories you and I have shared. I step into your dreams when you least expect it, and if you look hard enough, you can find me there.

Say my name. Remember me in the quiet moments. They will sustain you when the world intrudes and tries to drown out the sound of the conversations that you still have with me when you think no one else is listening. I am still here.

Mom, my soul is quiet now. It no longer yearns for the things my physical body needed to survive this particular battle. It took everything from me, and I know it took everything from you; you will never realize what that did to my spirit when I passed from that life into this one.

I know that you feel like you are losing your mind some days, but when you hear a heartbeat where none should exist, know that it is mine, keeping time with yours.

I am still here. I did exist. I left my mark upon this world, and I am at peace now.

Love,

Your Child 💕

—
It takes a village.

OCTOBER is month. 💕Reach out to a and . It’s the best gift you can give a grieving heart.

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16/10/2022

It's our MJ's 1st year angelversary 👼🏻💚

For days I've been struggling, not knowing what to feel, or how to face this day. I thought her 1st birthday was hard enough but today is heartbreaking. I still remember that time I was woken by my husband which shattered our world. It took hours just to start the day, preparing for it. It took hours where I'm just staring blankly. I still wish we had a different story. I miss her everyday 🥺

Prayers for everyone 🙏🏻

14/10/2022

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