27/01/2026
TRIGGER WARNING: Long post ahead. This post discusses mental health struggles.
This is the story of how my relationship with a seaman, the Abusive and Manipulative Albert Bryan Jandayan Gallardo, is costing me my life. The man who once promised to love me and protect me until the end, ultimately became the reason I was left dealing with MAJOR DEPRESSIVE DISORDER CURRENT EPISODE SEVERE.
I told myself that if I could finally let out everything I’ve been carrying in silence for so long, I’d be at peace. I’m ready to go wherever life takes me even into the unknown.
The love i thought would save me from all the world torture, tortured me more than the world did.
I feel deeply embarrassed that I’ve found myself in this situation again. When everyone warned me about Albert, I did everything I could to protect his name. Sadly, it turns out they were right all along. He broke my heart while i was telling my family, friends and everyone that he’s a good man.
To be honest, after finally letting everything out, I no longer care. I reached a point where the pain completely consumed me. All I want is for people to understand the abuse I suffered at Albert’s hands. Being seen and heard is the only peace I am asking for. I need to let this out because I have been silent for so long, carrying his abuse on my own. Speaking now is the only way I can finally breathe.
Hello! It’s me again, marami na siguro sa inyo ang nakakilala na sa akin dahil inexpose ko ang first exboyfriend ko na nagviral nung January 2023 dahil sa pagiging cheater at womanizer niya. To make it short, I’ve always been a date-to-marry kind of girl that only wants one man in her whole life. I’m not the kind who likes to play around and date different men. Kaya kapag may karelasyon ako, siya na talaga ang pinipili ko hanggang dulo.
When I found out that ex-boyfriend cheated on me, that was the darkest moment of my life. Like literally, I can handle all problems in life, not just being betrayed by someone I loved my whole life. Hanggang ngayon, minsan napapaisip ako na parang himala na lang talaga na naka-survive ako sa lahat ng pinagdaanan ko.
While I was in my healing phase, unexpectedly, dumating si Albert sa buhay ko. Grabe ang patience niya sa akin. He understood what I did when I posted about my ex-boyfriend. he never judged me, unlike other guys na nagparamdam sa akin pero lowkey jinudge ako for the way I released the unbearable pain of being cheated on. He comforted me. He did everything to make me trust him. That time I know nasa worst phase pa ako ng buhay ko kaya pinipilit ko siyang itulak palayo para hindi siya madamay sa mga problema ko. Pero lagi siyang nag-iinsist na gusto lang daw talaga niyang mag stay sa tabi ko, at willing siyang umintindi at maghintay hanggang sa maging okay ako. Grabe ang assurance niya sa akin. sinabi niya na hindi niya ako sasaktan o paiiyakin tulad ng ginawa ng ex ko, dahil hindi ko raw ‘yon deserve. Kaya doon ko talaga nakita ang kabutihan niya.
Fast forward, naging kami noong August 2023. Jokingly he would always say, siya lang ang nag-iisang taong naging masaya na niloko ako, dahil doon daw naging kami. Lol
He was so happy that I finally said yes to him. He later confronted me that he had liked me and dreamed of me since 2021, and that he had been patiently waiting for my relationship with my ex to end. We had already been Facebook friends for a long time, and since he and my ex were workmates, that was how he came to know me. He even admitted that he used to stalk my profile back then.
As for me, I told myself, maybe this time I won’t get hurt anymore cos he really liked me that much. Lol. I kept telling him, please, if you’re only going to hurt me someday, leave now while you still can because if you will hurt me, I might not be able to take it anymore. But he repeatedly assured me that he would never hurt me. He even said that only death could stop him from loving me. Ok?
I trusted him. I loved him so much. Everything seemed perfect.
He introduced me to his mother through a video call, since he was onboard at that time. We got along very well, and she genuinely liked me. She even said right then and there that she wanted me to be Albert’s wife. I wasn’t pretending to be someone. she knew I could be strong and outspoken when provoked, but kind to people who are kind to me. I felt so happy because Albert’s mother understood me and everything I had been through, including the post I made about my ex. She did not judge me even though her sister did. She treated me nicely.
I am his 1st official GF who he introduced to his family.
Fast forward to problems. 🫣
1st major problem:
He’s a seaman, and after eight months of contract, of course any partner would want to spend as much time together as possible, right? That’s what he said too — na araw-araw daw kaming magkikita. And I’m the kind of person who believes that when you make a promise or agreement, you should keep it, unless there’s a valid reason. Ayaw ko sa taong walang isang salita. We were both in Cebu City, so distance was never the problem.
One time, he told me he came from school and said he couldn’t see me that day because he just wanted to rest at his aunt’s house. Of course, I was hurt cos didn’t we agree na magkikita tayo? Then after a while, he updated me again and said lalabas daw siya at pupunta sila ng IT Park kasama mga pinsan niya. That’s when I thought, “Akala ko ba pagod ka at gusto mo lang magpahinga?” Tas lalabas ka bigla. Ahhhh sinungaling ka pala Albert ha.
That’s when something inside me broke and got triggered. I kept calling him, pero ayaw niyang sagutin ang tawag ko. My chest felt heavy. I couldn’t calm myself down, so I went to the house where he was staying and waited outside. My anxiety was already eating me alive. While waiting, I bought liquor from a nearby store, not because I wanted to cause trouble, but because I was already shaking and desperate to feel something else.
After a while, they arrived. He went to me in the store and I asked him to open the bottle for me because I couldn’t open it myself. But instead of opening it, he brought it inside his aunt’s house and asked his cousin to hide it. He dragged me inside while I was emotionally overwhelmed.
Then his cousin suddenly said, “Ano raw ‘yung narinig ko na ipopokpok mo siya sa ulo?”
I froze. “Ha? Ipopokpok? Anong sinasabi mo? I only asked him to open the bottle.” Apparently, Albert thought I was going to hit him on the head with it.
I got mad already. Told Albert Kung talagang balak kong ipokpok ka sa ulo gamit yung bote, I could have done it right away without asking you to open the bottle, right? Crazy.
Everything turned into chaos. I explained that the bottle was mine and I only asked him to open it. Simple as that. But the story had already reached their relatives’ groupchat. Then later, I found out that Albert didn’t answer my calls — almost 70 missed calls — because while they were in the car, they were just watching my calls come in, following the advice of his teenage cousin to not answer. That triggered me even more. He was almost 30 years old, yet he chose to listen to a teenager instead of answering me. Lol.
After that, I was talked about in their relatives’ GC — called scandalous, dramatic, and worse. There was one aunt, Aunt Claire, who wouldn’t let it go. Everyone else had already moved on. After Albert cleared things up with them and explained what really happened, his cousin and I exchanged apologies. But aunt Claire stayed bitter, judgmental, and loud even though she was never in the picture, she was in Mindanao. I explained everything to Albert’s mother, and she understood me completely. She never judged me. But Aunt Claire/Reres chose to remain a basher. Albert literally said she’s a warfreak and they just let her be cos it’s just her nature. Lol 😬
2nd major problem:
Kami ni Albert with his mother and another aunt, husband and children. We went to Simala, nag-bless pa ako sa kanila, nagkwentuhan kami tungkol sa buhay ko at kung saan ako galing school and etc. Everything went well. Few days later, may nireto si Uncle Raul kay Albert na ibang babae dahil hindi daw ambisyosa. I was like Really? Ano ba ang mali sa pagiging ambisyosa? Dahil nakaka-afford akong mag-travel sa ibang bansa? Ano’ng problema? Anong mali sa may ambisyon? Gusto mo ba na tambay lang ako, walang pangarap? I don’t get his point.
After kita hinarap ng maayos you will just disrespect me and Albert’s relationship like that? Ayos2 ng pakikitungo ko sayo sa simala. Nung una, sabi ni Albert, “Weirdo” ka daw, pero hindi kita hinusgahan kasi hindi pa kita kilala. Pero ganito ka pala kabastos Uncle Raul. Sige.
3rd major problem:
Ever since high school, pangarap ko talagang makapunta sa Showtime. Ang hirap makapasok doon, lalo na kung kukuha ka ng ticket online. Thankfully, may cousin ako na may kakilala sa ABS-CBN. Sobrang saya ko that day kasi finally! Naka-Showtime ako kasama si Albert 🥰.
Habang nasa waiting area, sinabi ko kay Albert na samahan niya akong bumili ng pagkain, tapos ang sabi niya, “ikaw lang, malapit lang yan” habang naglalaro sa cellphone. Sobrang nasaktan ako kasi, talaga ba ngayon mo pupuksain ang araw ko? Diba bonding ang purpose natin dito sa Manila, hindi mag-cellphone lang? Bigla na lang bumagsak ang luha ko, tumakbo ako sa CR at umiyak. Nasira ang araw kong pinakahihintay, nasira ang pinaghandaan ko. Pagbalik ko palabas, may dala na siyang pagkain. Aba, pwede naman pala akong samahan sana bumili, bakit kailangan pang antayin mag away?
Umiiyak na lang ako ng walang tigil hanggang makapasok kami sa studio, nagsimula na ang show, patuloy pa rin ako sa pag-iyak. Siya naman, nag-enjoy at nanonood kay Vice. Edi wow ka.
4th major problem: YEAR 2025
Albert transferred to another company, with a 1‑year contract. It became extremely difficult for us because that was such a long time apart. Every time we had a video call, he would constantly take screenshots of me when I looked ugly, and he found it very amusing to bully me. At that time, I wasn’t in my best shape—I had gained weight and was already insecure. And here was Albert, constantly emphasizing my insecurities.
I kept telling him to stop doing that because it was already hurtful. But he kept repeating the bullying because he genuinely enjoyed it. I eventually reached my limit and told him, “Please don’t call me anymore if you’re just going to insult me.” He refused to accept not calling, but our everyday calls gradually lessened until there were barely any.
He would only call when my nephew was around because that’s where he found happiness. Months went by, and I felt deeply hurt because he only called when the child was there. If it was just me, he wouldn’t call at all anymore like we used to. His excuse was always that he was just tired from work.
We no longer had proper conversations. He stopped checking on me, stopped asking how I was. There were no plans anymore for the two of us when he came home—everything was always just me making the effort. He had no enthusiasm anymore, in short. As his girlfriend, I was deeply hurt by how he treated me.
I kept complaining about how his treatment hurt me, and he would always say it was just work and that he had no problem with me. I told him multiple times that if this was how things were going to be, maybe it would be better if we just broke up—but he never agreed.
Truthfully, I didn’t really want us to break up. I just wanted him to go back to the person he used to be.
Months passed with the same recurring fights—him having no interest, there was a time where we have not been communicating for two days, then I messaged him first. And when he replied, it was as if nothing happened, as if we hadn’t gone two days without talking, like it didn’t matter to him at all 😭
I couldn’t take it anymore and asked, “Why are you like this? We didn’t talk for two days, and you’re acting like it’s nothing?” He replied, “I’m going to sleep first.”
That made it worse. We hadn’t talked for two days, and now that we finally are, you’re just going to sleep?? He said, “Do you want a fight?”
What I wanted was to talk about our problems so we could finally fix things. But he got extremely angry, completely out of control.
The next day, we continued chatting. Our fight was intense—I kept crying. Then suddenly, he called. I was so happy because that’s what he used to do before—call to fix things.
But when I answered, his sibling was on the video call. I asked, “Why is your sibling there? We should talk privately. your sibling has nothing to do with our relationship.”
Albert said, “I won’t talk to you without my sibling. I won’t.” How immature can you get?
I cried nonstop for several days and even months after that. I felt like I just wanted to disappear.
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Days later, Albert stopped replying to me completely. I was blocked on all platforms. I felt like I was going insane from the pain.
I decided to go to his mother’s house and shared everything that happened between me and Albert. As usual, his mother comforted me. She said that fights are normal in relationships, that couples just need to talk things out, and so on.
Our conversation was very comforting. I let out all my feelings to his mother and cried in front of her. Because she actually told me that I could talk to her anytime if I have problems with her son. She also shared her own experiences, and we truly understood each other. It was already night, so she let me sleep in her house.
The next morning, Albert’s younger sister messaged me saying something like:
“Don’t you have any decency left? You even dragged my mother into this? Get out of there. I don’t want you to ever come back.”
I replied, “As far as I know, this is my mother’s house, and she decides who is allowed to enter.”
I then deleted and blocked her because she was extremely toxic. She had no idea what really happened and still spoke to me like that. She never met me and talked to me personally yet she is very quick to judge when she only heard Albert’s side—the version he made up whenever he was angry. Told your father about this and he was disappointed sa ugali nyong magkapatid.
Even Albert’s own mother said that Albert has a very harsh mouth and becomes extremely brutal when he’s angry. I witnessed that myself—he becomes reckless with his words. He doesn’t know how to communicate properly and sometimes even made up stories.
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August 7, 2025—our anniversary. I called his father and told him everything that happened to us. he understood me. He was willing to help me too just like his mother. By the way, his parents live separate lives and I am in good terms with both. I respect them both because they were so kind to me from the start.
We went to Simala for our anniversary. He accompanied me and even took a day off from work. He said our problem was so small na parang dumi lang sa kuko and not worth breaking up over. He said he didn’t want us to break up. I agreed as long as di ka pa nambababae magiging okay pa rin.
If I were truly a bad person Albert, your mother and father wouldn’t have treated me the way they did—unlike what your relatives say about me. If there is anyone who has the right to judge me from your side, it’s your parents, because they are the only ones who got to truly talk to me and know me, not any of your relatives or even sister.
From the very start, your parents told me that if we ever had problems, I could run to them—and they actually allowed that. I love them for it.
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Fast forward: I had wanted for a long time to train in maritime industry so I could also work on a ship, so we wouldn’t be in a long‑distance anymore. Ako na naghanap ng paraan para di na tayo magkalayo. But, you never allowed me to leave and work anywhere abroad because you said you would take care of everything and provide everything for me. Amfeeling. Pero kapag nag-aaway tayo, ang galing mong manumbat. di ko naman hiningi yang mga bigay mo. Galing mo magmagaling, provide for me kaya ayaw mo ko paalisin pero lagi ka naman nangungutang sakin. Lol
You were also traumatized by what happened to your sibling, who just went abroad and eventually broke up with her partner in the Philippines. You were afraid I would leave you. Napakalayo ko naman sa ugaling yan. 😬
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For several months, you continued to ignore me, yet I still tried to fix us. Yes, I know there was already so much disrespect, but I focused only on your good sides—the person you were at the beginning.
I greeted you on your birthday. You replied thank you and then said ayaw mo na talaga.
That night, I found out you had been chatting with another woman and even wanted to call her. Imagine the pain of knowing that for months I had been waiting for your call, while you were inviting another woman to talk on the phone. Out of anger, I told you, “Try cheating, and I will expose everything you’re hiding.”
You got extremely angry and replied:
“I was willing to forgive you sana because it’s my birthday, but I changed my mind today. Your attitude came back..”
Attitude sinasabi mo? If you only treated me well, walang mag aattitude. Lol l. A woman becomes a reflection of how you treat her. You didn’t even know that I already knew about the other woman you are flirting with, hindi mo alam na alam ko, that’s why I said what I said. Parang sa kanta lang ni Sam Smith “you say i’m crazy, ‘cause you don’t think i know what you’ve done” Oh diba gulat ka ba Albert? Ngayon mo lang nalaman. Lol.
And Really, Albert? You were willing to reconcile with me after months of ignoring me, just right after you invited another woman to call you while you ignored me? And you still had the audacity to gaslight me? Nice 👏👏👏
Sinasabi mo pa sa iba na binubugbog daw kita—excuse me? Hindi ka talaga marunong magsalita, Albert. Dahil sa emotional abuse mo, pagsisinungaling, at sakit ng trato mo, minsan nakukurot kita, HINDI BUGBOG. OA ka. Mama mo nga naiintindihan ako kasi suki ka din ng kurot sa kanila noon dahil sa ugali mo. Lagi mong sinisisi ang reaksyon ko pero hindi mo tinitingnan ang mga ginawa mo sa’kin. Pinapaiyak mo pa ako sa Showtime studio. Sobrang nasaktan ako don sinira mo araw na hinintay ko since highschool. Kurot lang sa braso, hindi kita sinuntok o sinapok. Sorry po? Yun lang rebutt mo? Again, if you treated me right, none of these would’ve happened. huwag ka fake news.
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Still, I kept fighting until we could meet in person to talk properly. I found out you had already come home. Nagsinungaling ka sa mga tao about your whereabouts. Because you have no guts and respect to face me. Di mo kaya magpakalalaki. Dinamay mo pa pinsan ko na walang alam sa problema natin. Sinabi mo pa sa cousin ko na ayaw mo ako makita ng personal dahil ayaw mo akong makita nasasaktan. Edi wow
You blocked me on all your social media accounts, but you created a dummy account to comment on my posts, pretending to show concern. I wondered who the dummy account was, until you messaged me saying it was you.
You wouldn’t reply to me on your main account even blocked me, yet you kept viewing and commenting on my different social media accounts using your dummy account and 2nd account “Brian Jandayan”. Ayaw mo ko kausapin pero nakikipag usap ka sakin gamit dummy mo? Ayaw mo ko kausapin pero ginugulo at dinadamay mo yung walang ka alam2 na mga pinsan ko at yaya ng pamangkin ko? Ano ba trip mo? Raulo ka ba?
Albert, that was pure torture.
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During your vacation in Cebu, You went wild—constant partying, chatting with different women, meeting them, even m1n0r$ and students.
When you boarded the ship again, you never had the courage to talk to me personally—not even out of basic respect, which I deserved.
Albert’s repeated insults, humiliation, neglect, gaslighting, control over my movements, involvement of third parties in our private matters, refusal to meet me in person, neglect of his financial responsibilities, and monitoring me through dummy accounts caused sustained emotional, psychological, and economic harm. These actions show a clear pattern of abuse, manipulation, disregard, and cruelty. Little by little, he destroyed my emotional well-being, and the pain he caused remains profound. While Albert may have provided certain material items voluntarily and without any request on my part, such gestures do not constitute payment, settlement, or extinguishment of any existing debt. A debt remains a debt, regardless of any gifts given.
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NOVEMBER 2025
I couldn’t take it anymore. I constantly thought about how to end the pain you caused me. I decided to consult a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with MAJOR DEPRESSIVE DISORDER, CURRENT EPISODE SEVERE, WITHOUT PSYCHOTIC SYMPTOMS.
I just want to thank my friends who were always there whenever I broke down and at my lowest. Thank you for listening, for staying, and for not getting tired of me while I was falling apart. Thank you for being my safe place. You have played a big part why I am still alive today. To everyone who read my story, reached out, and supported me, thank you for your kind and encouraging words. Your support lightened my heart and reminded me that I’m not alone. ❤️
If one day I just couldn’t take it anymore, I’m truly sorry. I hope the people who love me will understand. Please know it would mean I’ve finally found peace, no longer hurting.
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To Albert,
I had high walls up when you came into my life. You worked patiently to tear them down, to make me trust you. I saw the goodness in you—and even when your real character began to show, even when the red flags appeared, I chose to ignore them. I held on to the good parts of you, the person I fell in love with in the beginning. I truly believed that none of your flaws would ever make me love you less.
I hope that one day you realize I never wanted to fight. All I ever wanted was for you to understand how deeply you hurt me.
I never spoke badly about you to my family, Albert—unlike what you often did to me with yours. Every time you hurt me, cursed me, or crossed a line, you apologized, and I forgave you immediately. I never let the pain linger, because I couldn’t stand the thought of you hurting for long.
But you ignored me—for days, for so long.
How were you able to do that?
Little by little, you broke me.
I wish you had never come into my life if you were only going to destroy me in the end.
Sincerely,
from the girl who understood you endlessly, forgave you repeatedly, and loved you with all that I had, Angelique Saycon.
