29/09/2025
Being a writer made me see how people didn't want me to win.
I know that title probably caught your attention, but this isn’t just about people not supporting what I do. It’s strange to be in a place where I hold so much power, yet feel lonely at the same time. Why do I say that? Because what I’m doing is wild. Who wakes up one day and decides they’re going to be great? That kind of confidence is power. It’s lifted me into a position where I feel like I’m floating and unstoppable. I’ve seen the possibilities of success simply because I took the leap. Failure only happens when you decide that’s all you’re capable of, and I refused to believe that. That’s why I’m here now.
I’m about to write my second book, and before even starting it, I decided to plan a grand launch for my birthday next year. Just having the drive to do something like this feels like a blessing. In today’s world, reality is so twisted that chasing your dreams somehow becomes a public debate. But I’m not surprised. Even when my husband passed away and I moved on after a year, it turned into a spectacle. Some people called it “not normal behavior.” But honestly, who cares? If there’s one valuable thing I’ve learned, it’s to stop caring about people’s opinions. Their approval doesn’t make your food taste better or your wallet any fuller.
When I go to conventions now, I see how much people enjoy connecting with me. They talk, share their stories, and open up even in the short time we have while I’m behind my booth. Maybe some of them worry they’re bothering me, but if you’re one of those people, please don’t. I love hearing stories. Nothing about that bores me.
So how did I start thinking people didn’t want me to win when so many have been wonderful, supportive, and proud of me? Because I realized something hard: most of the people who knew me didn’t actually want me to succeed. They wanted me to lose... not out of hatred, but because it would make them feel better. If I failed, they could tell themselves that failure is necessary to humble a person. If I lost, they wouldn’t have to try and could use me as proof that it’s okay not to.
I can’t explain how I know this, but I just do. And unfortunately for them, I’m not going to lose. That’s why I’m saying this. Stop expecting that from me. Start focusing on what you actually want for yourself. Because when you see me succeed, I don’t want it to hurt you.
Oh yeah... this picture has nothing to do with what I wrote. I just wanna share this cos why not? Can we just go back to those simple days when people just do it without overthinking it. 🥹
