17/03/2023
Diary of St Maria Faustyna Kowalska
Notebook 1:285-292
1934. Once, when I returned to my cell, I was so tired that I had to rest a moment before I started to undress, and when I was already undressed, one of the sisters asked me to fetch her some hot water. Although I was tired, I dressed quickly and brought her the water she wanted, even though it was quite a long walk from the cell to the kitchen, and the mud was ankle deep. When I re-entered my cell, I saw the ciborium with the Blessed Sacrament, and I heard this voice, "Take this ciborium and bring it to the tabernacle." " I hesitated at first, but when I approached and touched it, I heard these words, "Approach each of the sisters with the same love with which You approach Me; and whatever You do for them, You do for Me." A moment later, I saw that I was alone.
Once, after an adoration for our country, a pain pierced my soul, and I began to pray in this way: "Most merciful Jesus, I beseech You through the intercession of Your Saints, and especially the intercession of Your dear Mother who nurtured You from childhood, bless my native land. I beg You Jesus, look not on our sins, but on the tears of little children, on the hunger and cold they suffer. Jesus for the sake of these innocent ones, grant me the grace that I am asking of You for my country." At that moment, I saw the Lord Jesus, His eyes filled with tears, and He said to me, "You see, My daughter, what great compassion I have for them. Know that it is they that uphold the world."
My Jesus, when I look at this life of souls, I see that many of them serve You with some mistrust. At certain times, especially when there is an opportunity to show their love for God, I see them running away from the battlefield. And once Jesus said to me, "Do you, My child, also want to act like that?" I answered the Lord , "Oh no, my Jesus, I will not retreat from the battle field, even if mortal sweat breaks out on my brow; I will not let the sword fall from my hand until I rest at the feet of the Holy Trinity!" Whatever I do, I do not rely on my own strength, but on God's grace. With God's grace a soul can overcome the greatest difficulties.
Once when I was having a long talk with Jesus about our students, encouraged by His kindness, I asked Him, "Do You have among our students any who are a comfort to Your Heart?" The Lord answered (that) He has, "But their love is weak, and so I put them in your special care - pray for them".
O great God, I admire Your goodness! You are the Lord of heavenly hosts, and yet You stoop so low to Your miserable creatures. Oh, how ardently I desire to love You with every beat of my heart! The whole extent of the earth is not enough for me, heaven is too small, and boundless space is nothing; You alone are enough for me, Eternal God! You alone can fill the depths of my soul.
My happiest moments are when I am alone with my Lord. During these moments I experience the greatness of God and my own misery.
Once Jesus said to me, "Do not be surprised that you are sometimes unjustly accused. I myself first drank this cup of undeserved suffering for love of you."
Once, when I was deeply moved by the thought of eternity and its mysteries, my soul became fearful; and when I pondered about these a little longer, I started to be troubled by various doubts. Then Jesus said to me, "My child, do not be afraid of the house of your Father. Leave these vain inquiries to the wise of this world. I want to see you always as a little child. Ask your confessor about everything with simplicity, and I will answer you through his lips."
On a certain occasion, I saw a person about to commit a mortal sin. I asked the Lord to send me the greatest torments so that, that soul could be saved. Then I suddenly felt a terrible pain of a crown of thorns on my head. It lasted for quite a long time, but that person remained in the Lord's grace. O my Jesus, how very easy it is to become holy; all that is needed is a bit of good will. If Jesus sees this little bit of good will in the soul, He hurries to give Himself to the soul, and nothing can stop Him, neither short comings or falls - absolutely nothing. Jesus is anxious to help that soul, and if it is faithful to this grace from God, it can very soon attain the highest holiness possible for a creature here on earth. God is very generous and does not deny His grace to anyone. Indeed He gives more than what we ask of Him. Faithfulness to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit - that is the shortest route.
When a soul loves God sincerely, it ought not to fear anything in the spiritual life. Let it subject itself to the action of grace, and let it not impose any restraints on itself in communing with the Lord.
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