24/12/2025
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Merry Christmas.
I woke up to a familiar figure standing by my bed.
It was my dad.
โMerry Christmas, Daddy! How are you? Was your trip fun?โ
I couldnโt stop asking questionsโhe had finally arrived, after the longest trip.
โDonโt worry,โ he smiled. โIโm here to answer all your questions.โ
He told me his trip was super duper fun. Heโd been with my aunts and uncles, laughing, exploring, and โmiraculouslyโ he hadnโt felt sick the entire time.
โIt was wonderful,โ he said. โYou shouldโve seen your uncle running around, your aunts gossiping, and meโfinally able to run and dance again.โ
โAww, I wish I had gone with you, Daddy. Itโs been forever since we talked. I really missed you.โ
He was a seaman. Heโd spent years at sea, gone for long stretches without returning. But he was my Super Dad. Heโd been with us for decades, always strong, always presentโeven when he was far away.
โYou look so tall now,โ he said, chuckling. โMight be taller than me.โ
โDaddy naman,โ I laughed. โIโm in my twenties now. I canโt be your cutest baby boy forever.โ
He looked at me, eyes soft.
โNo matter what happensโeven if the skies go blackโIโll always love you. No matter how you look, no matter how tall you grow. Iโll always love you for you.โ
We sealed it with a pinky promise. Non-renewable, of course.
We laughed at my silly jokes, and time slipped by as we talked.
โHowโs school?โ he asked.
โItโs going okay. I transferred schools. Andโฆ I won a gold medal. Champion.โ I was trying to avoid his question.
He grinned. โWhat happened? And good job!โ
โIt wasn't the major for me, and I am feeling unwell from all the expectations and I just don't understand anymore," I admitted.
His laughter stopped. โSometimes, every time is the perfect time. Youโll figure it out. You donโt have to know everything right away. Just donโt let others shape you into someone youโre not. Understand yourself first.โ
I clenched my fists. A tear slipped down my cheek.
Iโd been so caught up in what everyone expected me to be, I forgot to ask myself what I wanted.
He reached out and wiped my tears.
โTahan na. You are worth everything. And besides, Iโll always be with youโme, Mommy, Ate, Kuya. Weโre always here.โ
He smiled. โMaybe itโs time to set up the tree?โ
And thenโฆ.
I woke up.
There was no Christmas tree to set upโฆ
I sighed.
Itโs been four years since he left us.
But I still feel him.
I still wish I had spent more time with him.
Christmas had been heavy ever since.
We celebrate, but without him.
A knock on my door.
It was Ate and Kuya, greeting me with a warm โMerry Christmas.โ
Maybe this Christmas won't be as sad, as it seems,
I smiled and greeted them with a Merry Christmas.
The pain of losing someone you love is rough.
But inside every home, someone is still setting up the tree.
Still holding space for love.
Still remembering.
Merry Christmas.
To all our dearly beloved whoโve passed onโ We carry you with us, always.
Especially in this season of giving.
By Zylie Evangelista