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Ïndah Shasha, Ayala zone 8, Zamboanga City (2025)

05/10/2024

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05/10/2024

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28/07/2024

Yes acceptance is the key sender but I salute Kase your a strong girl😊💗

"MEETING HIM AGAIN I REALIZED, I MISS MY OLD SELF"

Let me share first how we met each other and became friends during our college days. Ahead sya daing kakuh one year, pero magkilahi kami since sibuh kami course. Maiyan ko unexpected in naging friendship namuh.

Firstly, because bukon naman kami classmates. Bukon din ako sanay makipag friends ha usog, mataud din kami differences ha buhay.

Strict in family ko, studious and silent type ako, though bukon din naman dayahan in family ko pero both of my parents are government employees. Pero sya, bulaug, paniga, panginom, yruon na sya father and in nagpapaiskul kanya is auntie nya. Bukon naman pangmaba mabah tao pero maiyan ko anak miskin sya.

But then, during both our vacant periods naging sibuh in tambayan namuh with our group of friends. So didtu nag start in friendship namuh. We became friends, naging close and naging mag best friends.

From closeness di namuh namalayan na nagkakadevelopan na pala kami. I was very happy to have him as my bestfriend. Yung tipong kahit dih mo maiyan kanya in problema mo pero ramdam nya bang kaw bukon okay. He was always there beside me. Always kami mag agad during our vacant period, minsan din nagsisit in sya sa class ko as review nya na rin daw sa previous subjects nya. And most of the time we came early to school kahit yruon kami first period class and went home late kahit yruon kami last period just for us to spend our time together.

Siguro mga more than a year before ko na realize na awn na ako special feelings kanya. Amun makafeel na kaw selos bang sya close din ha dugaing girls, and magkamiss ko na sya always bang kami yruon nag aagad. Nafeel ko din na mutual in feelings namuh.

To be honest I’ve waited for him na manligaw sakin, pero never sya nagconfess sin feelings nya. Many times din ako mayah magbaytah kanya sin feelings ko pero syempre makaluman since ako in babae and baka makasira lang ha friendship namuh. In mga friends and even some of our teachers pannal nila tunang na kami. Sometimes kasi magka holding hands na rin kami sa campus. Pero friends lang talaga kami ha mga time na un.

During his last year in college, medjo napapadalas in selos. Actually, that time, awn ako duwa suitors. One was my batch mate and in hambuuk is already a professional na same course lang namuh dati.

To be honest awn mga time na pagtuurun ko magpaselos kanya, I was hoping kasi that time na magtapat na sya kakuh, hahaha. Pero still no effect. Most of my friends bukon boto kanya. Mas boto sila ha duwa un. Kasi nga bang icompare physically, financially and maybe in every aspects mas lamang in duwa un daing kanya. Pero sya ang gusto ko.

Until one night while we were texting, natopic namuh in about crushes. I mentioned some of our girl friends as crush nya and sabi nya bukon daw. That was the first time nagtapat sya kakoh sin feelings nya. It was mutual naman and we were bestfriends, kaya yruon ko na piyalugay. Naging kami na agad that night thru text lang ng walang ligawan.

He was my first boyfriend, first girlfriend nya rin ako. Sabi pa ng mga friends nya kakuh yruon daw un p**ialam sa mga girls dati, bisyo lang daw ang naging kaligayahan and kakuh daw first nainlove kaya daw di marunong manligaw.

In my case naman, mataud na ako naging crush and nainlove na rin many times, pero hanggang didtu lang. Yruon naman kasi talaga balak ko magka jowa while nagsschool pa. Dapat focus sa studies as always iiyan sin parents ko. Pero he was an exemption. I take a risk since I was deeply inlove na with him and ramdam ko rin na sincere sya sakin.

As expected we were so happy. Kulang nalang abot tenga ang ngiti bang kami nag aagad. We were always on a cloud nine during his last few months in college. Nalamud na rin ha dating place namuh in library. We both improved a lot in our studies, especially sya. Kahit mga mastal namuh nanibago ha improvements nya. Naging highest na sya ha mga major subjects nila.

I never asked him na magbago or pagbawalan sya ha mga bisyo nya, pero unti unti nalawah na in pagsiga iban paginom nya until totally nastop nya na. I can say na sobrang swerte ko to have him kahit na mataud in bukon boto.

One time diya pa sya nagtalk sin hambuok mastal namuh na kakilahan in parents ko. Iyanan sya medjo negative na indirect sya iyan di kami tupun. But then he said malanuh iban marayaw naman daw in intention nya kakoh.

We ignored some negative comments sin mga tao ha surroundings namuh. Basta lang happy kami of being together. And until now dih ko kalupahan in iyan nya kakoh that time, na in all aspects mas lamang daw in katan naging suitors ko daing kanya, pero sure daw sya when it comes to love yruon daw makadaug ha paglasa nya kakoh. And I really felt that. And kahit mataud against, kahit strict in parents ko, and kahit ha pangatud sin kaybanan walang wala sya, still I chose him and was too happy to be in a relationship with him.

Until time came nag graduate na sya ha college. Didtu nagstart in LDR namuh. Hanggang sa naggraduate na rin ako still LDR pa rin kami. Actually, namaid muna sya kakuh bang okay lang daw ha manila na sya maglawag work.

Baytah bunnal bukun okay kakuh. Sobrang miss ko na kasi sya, kabayaan ko din always kami nag aagad, iban mahunit talaga bang LDR. The most difficult thing ha LDR amun always kaw mag worry kanya, bang sya okay da, ha safety and health nya lalo na mag isa lang sya ha dugaing place. Pero nagpretend ako na okay lang kakuh. Dih rin kasi ako mabayah maging hadlang ha mga pangarap nya. Kaya natuloy sya pa manila.

Sad to say unti unti napinda na in situation. We both became too busy ha work namuh. Until time came we both decided to end our relationship. After more than a year nag message sya ulit sakin. Nagpaalam na mag abroad na sya. And that was our last communication. We lost contact na after that.

Pila years na rin in limabay yruon na ako balita kanya. Suddenly just last year I heard from a friend na he's already married. I stalked his fb account and saw the picture. Malingkat in wife nya. It's been couple of years na in about kamu and I've been in some relationships na rin after him. But after hearing those news na married na sya, I cannot lie to myself na masakit pa rin tuwih kakuh.

But to be honest, despite na nakafeel ako pain mas naging matimbang in nafeel ko happiness for him. In bunnal nya lamud ha mga prayers ko dati na sana makalawag sya marayaw babae maasawa nya. At last natupad na rin. Normal din naman siguro in makafeel ako hurt since he was once so dear to me. But that's life. Past is past na and I have to move on na rin from reminiscing the memories of us. Until recently lang, we met again.

We attended a seminar. Thru a letter confirmation nakalist in mga names sin participants and I saw his name on the list. In bunnal nya I felt uncomfortable pila days before sin seminar.

I cannot deny to myself na excited ako kakitaan sya balik pero on the other hand worried iban maluman din ako. Pila years na rin in limabay, marayaw adja bang kami mag asip pa. Basta ginis na in matalih ko. I came early to the seminar, bukon kasi ako mahilig mag filipino time.

Makulang pa tao pagdatung ko and I have an opportunity magpih sin lingkuran katanaman ko. I chose to sit didtu ha place na malabo nya ako kakitaan. Piyangunahan na rin kasi ako sin luman ko. After pila minutes timaud na rin in mga tao then dimatung na sya. Pagsud nya naman ha lawang kitah ko magtuy sya. Nanghagpay ako. Nagpabusy na lang ako at napansin ko yruon nya da ako kitah.

During the seminar proper magkalayo in lingkuran namuh. Pero amun uwian na nakapagkitah na kami. He approached me first and iyasip ko na rin sya. Grabe parang yruon nagbago kanya. Parang sya pa rin in dating bestfriend ko ha college, from his physical appearance pati style nya parang walang nagbago. Maybe a total opposite of myself.

Sobra na kasi in taud sin nagbago kakuh. I've met some negative people in my life. Maiyan ko nakasira un ha buhay ko, pati ha perspective ko ha life and that led me to change to who I am now. Meeting him again made me realized na sobra kong namiss in old self ko. Kamustahan lang kami habang palabas ng venue and konting biro. Then he asked me if muwi na daw ako. Honestly, I wanna stay muna. I wanna spend some quality time with him. Sobrang miss ko sya eh.

Even just as friends mabayah ako makapagstory kami malugay. Pero di ko rin kahatihan in self ko maytah ako nag decide na muwi na lang magtuy that time. At night, we message each other. He told me maus sab daw ako muwi magtuy kaina and he was looking for me pala during the seminar.

Balak nya sana daw dumaig kakuh para makapagstory kami. Kaso nga lang bukon na daw vacant in ha daig ko. We had a short conversation. I was careful too, knowing he's already a married person. Mataud pa sana ako mabayah iyanun and asubuhon kanya, but I decided wag na lang.

I know malabo din mabassa nya ini, since bukon naman sya mahilig ha byaini and busy person na rin sya byaun. Pero just in case lang allow me admin to extend my message to him.

Thank you for everything. Sobra ta kaw namiss. But don't get me wrong, namiss lang kita but it does not mean na inlove pa rin ako kaymo, hahaha. Namiss ko in friendship ta esp during our college days. And I am happy for you bang unu man awn kaw byaun. I hope di mo rin ma misinterpret na bukon ako okay sawkat na single pa rin ako until now. Choice ko ini. Happy and contented na rin ako ha buhay ko byaun.

Thank you ulit that day ha seminar, yruon kaw nagthink twice asipun ako. Though it's all in the past na, but thank you pa rin for all those beautiful memories that we shared together.

One of the lessons I've learn is maybe it's better to be honest ha partner nyo bang unu in bunnal nafifeel nyo. Sometimes kasi magkatalih ko na if siguro naging honest ako imiyan kanya sin dih ako mabayah pa manila sya, baka yruon sya natuloy and maybe yruon kami nakapagbreak.

But then again, past is past na. Naka destined na yun maghappen. The most important lesson is acceptance. Always natuh taliun na everything happens according to God's plan. Ayaw na magtalih sin mga what ifs. In katan naghahappen ha life natuh amun yan in kabayaan sin nagpapanjari.

Acceptance is the key.

-Yeng

28/07/2024

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"BEHIND MY ARRANGED MARRIAGE"

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"She didn't deserve that treatment, but I still hurt her."
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It's random for me to share my feelings to anyone since I am a private person but I guess, it is time that I have to. This is about a girl whom I hurt so much. Yeah! I think, I became her biggest trauma the way I treated her.

Dyungog natuh na siguro ha culture natuh in "Arranged Marriage" right? Same kami naka experienced byari. We were strangers to each other to begin with, dih kami magkilahi karuwa and yet piyagpa-tiyaun kami. She has her own life, while I was having my life just "Okay" as well before everything came to a mess.

I had my girlfriend. Kalasahan ko in babae ini. My initial plan was to be married to this girl. Pero, pagdatung sin news kako na I was going to marry another girl - a stranger girl for me, I became furious.

To be honest, nag disagree ako ha decision sin maas ko pero bisan byadiin in disagreement ko, way na ako nahinang. Lalo na when my girlfriend broken up with me pag ingat niya tiyaunon na ako ha dugaing babae. It safe to say, nara siya sin fitnah sin tao so she decided to not fight for me. She left me hanging and trapped in a situation that I don't want to.

That's why, I blamed everything ha babae ipapa-asawa kako. Atud ko kaniya was a "destroyer of my life". Imagine my happiness and my plans got ruined because of her?

UNO IN MAKAWAH NIYA HA ARRANGED MARRIAGE? MAYTA WAY SIYA TIMUTOL BISAN DIH NIYA KAKILAHAN IN MABANA NIYA?

Nagtanum ako dugal ha babae asawahun ko. I already planned and promised myself na hinangun ko h*ll in life niya kako. This was the price she needed to pay for letting our parents won with their decision.

I was being irrational for blaming her ha Q'dar namuh karuwa. Immaturity was on my system kaya kaniya ko kyaguwah in frustrations ko.

Nakapagtiyaun da kami. Pero I never treated her right. Way ko siya yaatud as ASAWA KO. Para kako, she was always reminding me about my failures in life and in love.

Bayta bunnal, irritated ako kaniya kasi bisan mangih in piyap**ita ko kaniya piyagtataatan niya pa rin ako marayaw. Amu yadto in mas kyadugal ko kaniya.

MAYTA SIYA PLASTIC? MAYTA NIYA AKO AYUPUTON SIN WAY KAMI NAGLALASA KARUWA?

Paglutuan niya ako pagkaun. Never siya na missed mag ayura magbati maynaat para kalutuan niya ako breakfast. Ipagluto niya in mga favorite ko pagkaun bang lunch na atawa dinner. Atasan niya mangasubo ha parents ko about ha mga favorites ko. Kaya mas lalo pa ako dyugalan kaniya!

UNO IN PANAYAM NIYA INI? MAYTA SIYA NAGPI-PLAY SIN ROLE NIYA AS ASAWA BISAN HA FIRST PA LANG 'I NEVER TREATED HER AS MY WIFE'?

Always nakalupih in mga badjuh ko. Way ako kakitaan malulummih badjuh kasi matilusay siya magdakdak. Always malanuh in bilik namuh karuwa. Masub siya manglanuh-lanuh ha bay.

Ha dugal ko sin style niya, ako in magjajagjag sin lupian niya. Mabayah ako laulon siya kako. Mabayah ako lisuan siya kako. Mabayah ako magsusun siya na ako in nabana niya. I showed her my unwanted sides para e give-up niya ako.

Ma lawm dum, dyungog ko siya naghahaguk. Tyampanan ko in taynga ko. Dih ako makatug ha hibuk. Never ko na-appreciate in kasabunnalan na ha pasalan sin laul niya adlaw-adlaw maghinang ha bay kaya siya naghahaguk, nagbabawi lang siya ha laul niya.

I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT HER!

Kyahunitan tuod ako pauliun in atay ko kaniya. Everytime ko siya kakitaan malarak magtuy in adlaw ko.

MAYTA SIYA NAGSASANDAL SIN LIFE NIYA KAKO? NAGTATAGAD AKO KANIYA UMIYAN SIYA DAHUN NIYA NA AKO MAGBUGIT! NAGTATAGAD AKO KANIYA MAGPAULIH NA SIYA HA MAAS NIYA.

Pero ha atud ko kaniya, biyah siya nag eenjoy gamman everytime kakitaan niya ako naba-badtrip iban nagsusuffer emotionally! Yari ba in baus niya kako? Act niya lang ba ini to hurt my ego kaya nagkukunwari siya marayaw para kaniya in dapit sin tao katan?

I never appreciated her. Everytime nagmamarayaw siya kako, magdudugal sab in pangatayan ko kaniya gamman.

I couldn't last my day when she was around. Para kako, living with her is like losing my sanity. I was like "DEAD" even I'm alive.

Basta, the irritation I felt made it nearly impossible for me to change my perception of her.

"H-A-T-E" Four letters to described my feelings for her. Never ako nakananam paglasa. Ulong pwede pa. Maulong ako kaniya kasi malisuh ako manakit tao pero she was really went too far para pagpanayaman pa in situation gamman. She was enjoying the "Asawa role" when she was aware na I am not okay with the set-up!

I had enough! So I played a really bad guy here this time.

I CHEATED ON HER.

Nagbabae ako. Nagtunang-tunang ako. Piyakita ko kaniya bang uno klase ako usug. Piyakita ko kaniya bang uno klase in nabana niya. Piyakita ko kaniya sin bukon niya ako deserve! Piyakita ko kaniya na I AM A LOW VALUE MAN who couldn't accept her as my wife.

I WANT HER OUT OF MY LIFE! In kabayaan ko, umiyan na siya kako magpabugit na siya kasi way ako lagi usug!

Maglalalah pa in hinang ko! Magvideocall pa ako iban dugaing babae in front of her. Ipagp**ita ko kaniya bang byadiin ako ka sweet ha dugaing babae while cold bang kaniya.

I wanted her to feel the pain! I want her to treated me like someone na WAYRUON PUOS BANA! In kabayaan ko, marealize niya na she was someone na WORTHLESS para kako. Someone na WAYRUON HALGAH HA KABUHI KO! I intentionally HURT her emotionally.

I saw tears! Oo, nakakita ako luhah ha mata niya when I told my sidechick bang byadiin ko siya kalasahan while she was listening. Dyurungug niya in sweet talks namuh. Pero pyahiran niya ra magtuy in luhah niya. She didn't want to give me a fulfilment and satisfaction. Nagmamatugas pa rin siya.

MAYTA SIYA MAGSANDAL KAKO? MAYTA?!

Tuloy-tuloy ra ako ha hinang ko pagbabalewala kaniya.

She already knew that I AM UNFAITHFUL. And I knew dumdum siya magtangis ha treatment ko kaniya. I know bang byadiin ko piyapatay in pangatayan nya. I know bang byadiin ko piyapasakitan in babae bang tutuusin victim din sin situation bang hawnu ako byaun! Pero we both know na nagkakasakitan na kami. Matugas kasi in pangatayan niya! Bang adja niya ako biyugit na, everything will be okay again!

3am, nakauwi ako galing ha mga barkada ko. Kita ko siya nagkukulang ha sala - feeling ko nagtatagad siya kako. Pero I ignored her. Syumud na ako pa bilik. Lyugos ko in baran ko matug. Pero, I don't know why I couldn't sleep that night.

So gimuwa ako. Miyadto ako pa sala bang hawnu siya nagkukulang. Iyatud ko siya. Napaka peaceful sin pagtug niya. Pero I saw sadness in her face bisan natutug siya.

That time I know SHE WASN'T HAPPY with me. But I don't really care!

Hisyu ba sab in mahinang happy ha treatment ko kaniya? That was my first time I looked at my WIFE byadto kalugay. Dih ko ma explained in feelings ko pero nakatuh bigla in luhah ko. Imulung ako kaniya.

She didn't deserve the pain I've caused.

Biyatih ko siya. Kyublaan siya pag atud niya yaun na ako ha alupan niya. Nakabangun siya magtuy.

"K-KAINA PA KAW? N-NAGKAUN NA KAW? BUTANGAN TA KAW?" Taranta pa siya kako duma magbissara.

"UBOS NA." I said. Sung na ako tumaykud kaniya pero awn urge ha utok ko in mangasubo kaniya.

"TAGAD, NAGKAUN NA KAW YAN?" I asked. And my heart was melted when she answered me.

"WAYRUON PA, NAGTAGAD AKO KAYMU." She said.

Nakumkum ko in lima ko ha astul - probably, bukon na astul kaniya. Astul na pa baran ko.

"MAYTA KAW NAGTAGAD PA KAKO? MAYTA WAY PA KAW MIYUNA KIMAUN?" I hate the sound na parang concern ako kaniya! I shouldn't care! Dapat way ako p**ialam!

Piyakusina ako, nagbutang ako pagkaun para kaniya. I really hate myself that time. Naga 'Act of service' ako ha babae kalisuan ko!

"KARI NA KAW KAUN." While she was eating, nag aatud lang ako kaniya. The guilt in my heart was attacking my total being!

"DIH NA AKO MABAYAH HINANGUN INI KAYMU." Naka atud siya kako when I said this. I was crying! Seriously crying that time.

"PLEASE, MAGBUGIT NA KITA. BUKON MO AKO DESERVE. DIH NA AKO MABAYAH MAHINANG REASON NAMAN MAYTA KAW NAGSUSUFFER BYAUN. BANG MANJARI, BUGITA NA AKO." I begged for my freedom. D*mn! The guilt in my heart was unexplainable. Pero napaka unfair na kaniya. She was suffering because of me. And she didn't deserve the bad treatment.

SHE DESERVED THE GENUINE SMILE ON HER FACE. SADLY, DIH KO YADTO IKADIHIL KANIYA.

She cried too. She was hurt. I badly hurt her emotion.

"DIH BA PWEDE LASAHUN MO AKO?" She asked me almost whispering pero enough pa rin para kadungugan ko.

"DIH KO MAHINANG IN LASAHUN KAW. MAAF! MARAYAW KAW BABAE! PERO BUKON AKO IN USUG PARA KAYMU. DIH KAW KUMUYAG KAKO."

Pero awn little voice ha pangatayan ko in nag disagree ha iyan ko. But I ignored it.

"MANJARI TA SULAYAN?" She asked.

"MAYTA? MAYTA BYAAN NA LANG IN TUYUH MO PAKISAMAHAN IN USUG BIYAH KAKO?" I asked her in frustration.

"NAKAIYAN AKO PA BARAN KO, BANG AKO MAKABANA, IN KABAYAAN KO MAKAMINSAN LANG. BANG TA KAW BUGITUN, BAKA DIH KO NA KAYA PA LUMAWAG DUGAING." She left me speechless.

"SAKIT ATAY LANG IN IKADIHIL KO KAYMU! KITAA BA IN KABUHI MO DII KAKO? NEVER TA KAW NAPAKUYAG IBAN NEVER KO YADTO MAHINANG. IN ATUD KO KAYMU TAO NAGLARAK SIN KABUHI KO." I was being j*rk! What I said was surely hurt her.

"IN PAGBUTANG MO KAKO PAGKAUN OH? NAPAKUYAG MO AKO DII. FIRST TIME TA KAW KITA NAGBUTANG PAGKAUN PARA KAKO." She was crying.

"MAYTA KAW BIYAAN KAKO? MAYTA DIH MO NA ADJA AKO BUTAWANAN? PIYAPAHUNITAN MO LANG IN BARAN TA KARUWA." To be honest, ha baran ko na ako dyudugalan that time kasi I was being imbecile.

This girl was genuine and a wife-material kaso mayta mahunit kako taymaun siya? Maybe because I met her by force? Ubos in atud ko kaniya is someone who stole my dreams and freedom.

Minig ako ha alupan niya. I went to our room and left her ha kusina. Nabuhi na sab in agut ko! Matugas tuod siya!

Pero mayta biyah makuyag in atay ko? Mayta despite ha agut ko biyah sapantun kimuyag ako ha fact na dih niya ako binun? Dih siya mabayah ibugit ako!

Nahilo na ako! Mayta naco-confused na ako kaniya?!!!

1 WEEK ako wayruon minuwi ha bay. Nakitug ako ha mga kabagayan ko to sort things out. Nag enjoy-enjoy ako. Mabayah ako makalupa ha mga problema ko especially mabayah ko kalupahan in asawa ko.

I blocked her on my social media. Pati ha cp ko nakablocked siya. No way na makontak niya ako. In mag uupdate kako sin kahalan niya, amun manghud ko. Mag asubo adja daw bang kuno ako muwi pa bay.

MAKAIRITA! What is special about me para magtuyuh siya kako?!!!

Time to go home. I saw her smiling at me widely pagkita niya kako. My heart felt something for the first time. That smile of her? Mayta kyumusug in heartbeat ko?

She treated me like her 'King' na sab ha bay. Nagtataat pa rin siya kako despite ha trato ko kaniya.

During our lunch, kyublaan siya simaw ako tinuwanan niya. She tried to hide her smile to me. Pero kita ko rin naman yadto. Biyah siya kilig madtu. First time ko kita siya mataud nakaun.

After namuh kimaun, as usual, naghugas na siya pagkakaunan. Atud-aturon ko siya. Grabe in tuyuh sin babae ini. Bukon ko tuod siya deserve. She's nice, while I am a bad person.

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Habang nagkikita ako tv, syumuok siya kako. Iyasubo ko siya bang okay da siya, timango lang siya.

"KUNO KITA MAGBUGIT?" I asked her randomly. Bigla na lang gimuwa ha simud ko yadto. Mabayah ko bawiun pero dih na. Naiyan ko na.

Nalawah siguro in gana niya kaya syumud siya pa bilik namuh without answering my question. Nakonsensya ako ha hinang ko. Ha mood na siya kaina ubos bigla ko siya iyan byadto so ayun, nagbackout siya bigla ha alupan ko.

Mahapun na siya gimuwa ha bilik, kaso buntoh na in matah niya gimuwa. Himarap siya pa kusina para magluto. I know she was crying about the things I've said.

Ako na nakonsensya, kaya myurul pa kusina. Way niya ako iyasip bisan ako magpapansin, bahasa ubuhon ako yaun pero continue da siya ha hihinang niya. Timindug na lang ako ha dugo² habang yaatud siya nag aadjal.

This time nag eenjoy ako mag atud kaniya. Bisan nagdudugal kako, yaun pa rin siya masi magtaat kako.

Dih na ako makasandal. Imiban na ako nagluto kaniya. Dih niya tuod ako asipun. Bang siya maghuyah pamapa, kawaun ko kaniya in laring. Ubos butanan niya isab, ampa kumawah kahah magpasuh sin lana para ipag gisa niya. Kyawah ko in luwag ampa ako in nag gisa. Madto na sab siya maglanuh sin istah para prituhon.

Basta nagpapansin ako kaniya. Dih ko kaingatan mayta ko yadto hihinang. Siguro mabayah ako dahun niya magbissara para ma clear namuh in pagbugit. Kaso nagdudugal siya kako?

"LUTOH NA INI?" Pangasubo ko kaniya. Way niya ako iyasip pero kyawah niya in luwag kako ampa tyalus in hinang ko. Then, nagbutang na siya para makakaun na.

"KAUN NA KAW, KUNSUM HATURA NA AKO PA MAAS KO. DIMIDTO NAA AKO." Agi niya kako. Bigla ako nakahundong. Yari na ba in tyatagaran ko? Maybe the next thing she will do is to tell me magbugit na kami.

Way siya kimaun. In ako dih din makakaun. Mabayah na ba siya magbugit kami? Nakananam ako kuba-kuba! Pero mayta imbes na ako kuyagan, miyumugah ako gamman?

Pagsud ko pa lawm bilik namuh, kikita ko siya natutug na. Full of pain in expression nya while sleeping.

MALAWAH NA BA SIYA KAKO? MAYTA AKO CONCERN? DIBA AMURA MAN SAB YADTO IN KABAYAAN KO? IN MAKAIG SIYA HA KABUHI KO?!

Simuok ako kaniya. Then, nafeel ko ha pangatayan ko sin way ako kyugan ha iyan niya magpahatud siya pa maas niya.

Biyatih ko siya. Diya ko siya nagbissara to clear things. Iyan ko siya dih ko siya ihatud pa maas niya. Iyan niya ako bang dih ko daw siya ika-hatud, muwih da siya isa-isa niya.

Bigla ako naparanoid kaniya! Diba yari in kabayaan ko? Pero mayta naga contradict na in pangatayan ko? Mayta dih ako mabayah ha idea niya? Mayta against na in atay ko?

"AYAW NA KAW MUWIH. DII NA KAW KAKO." Sibuh kami kyublaan ha iyan ko. I can't control myself anymore. So, I kissed her.

The next thing I know, she made me fear of losing her.

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Kaingatan ko, limabay ako ha confusion iban pagkabigla to treat someone like that. Pero today, I really want to say...

"أنا ممتن لله لأنه دعاني ألتقي بزوجتي."

"I am grateful to Allah for allowing me to meet my wife."

Oo, during those times way ako nahinang kaniya marayaw bana. Way ko nagampanan in role ko. Sung na malawah kako in babae out of the blue simulpot ha kabuhi ko pero nagpananam kako sin paglasa beyond my expectation.

I asked my parents if what to do since daran ko ipagbunghat kaniya in pagbugit bakas. So nagpaubat kami, ubos tyaunan ko siya balik (although simple wedding da) to amend my mistakes.

Today, I have become the happiest man on earth because I have my loving wife, and she has given me two little angels that I love the most.

I could say that sometimes love can be learned. Learning to love someone unexpectedly is a great feeling.

I told myself before na bukon niya ako deserve, but this time I want to prove to her na mali ako. KAYA KO MAGING DESERVING HA TAO BANG KO LANG PAGTUYUAN.

Ha efforts iban paglasa ipagdihil ta in maka justify bang deserve ta in hambuok tao.

In kabayaan ko byaun, adlaw-adlaw niya ako lasahun biyah sin paglasa ko kaniya. Adlaw-adlaw ko siya pagpamayah-mayaan since way kami byadto stage pasal arranged marriage nga kami. Pero bukon yadto hindrance para ipagpafeel ko kaniya byaun byadiin makalawag usug malasa mag asawa.

KASI YADTO IN DESERVE NIYA!

I may not be a perfect husband for her, pero I wanted to be the man who will always choose her no matter what. That's who I am today. A loving husband to my wife.

The Q'dar helps me find out my real happiness, and I am grateful about it.

Dii na lang admin, shukran.

-Win

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