06/11/2024
You made me question myself. You made me feel less than what I'm worth. I'm becoming my worst self and yet I thought I'm in my best because you made me try so hard to gain love from you. I tried to be everything you wanted. I tried to be everything you needed. And it seems like that still isn't enough. I tried to ignore the things that you did which upset me and tried to silence myself in order to please you. I tried to mend the broken pieces that you opened to me about, the ways that people hurt you in the past. I wanted to fix that. Until I just woke up one day and this isn't me anymore. The home I once felt secure is no longer safe. It feels so unfair that you can talk to me anytime you want and my energy still the same but everytime I want to talk to you, I feel like I'm bothering you. I cant ignore you the way you ignore me but no matter how bad you treat me, I'll never do the same thing. Doesn't it hurt when you find yourself not receiving back the same energy from the person you were so excited to talk to the
I'm Vip entire day? Isn't it so sad how you feel unwanted every time they disregard the energy you give them? And the worse part is that I won't have any control about the situation. And if I'll tell you, I'll end up feeling like I'm being too much.
You stopped caring. You stopped making efforts. You even stopped telling me how beautiful I am. It wasn't the words you didn't say, but the ones your behavior screamed loud and clear. You pulled away, you made me feel unloved, that you no longer care about how I feel and you're leaving me with no choice but to step back. Your actions are telling me to stop, should I?
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