01/07/2025
The less we talk..
the more I realize that maybe I don't need you as much as I thought I did.
I used to wait for your message, your call, or even just a consistent reply. Several times, I was in the middle of my excitement, ready to tell you how my day was. Late replies and excuses — an hour, two or four — suddenly makes me feel like my day means nothing.
Then I stop and wonder, should I even share how my day went today? Or am I just here to listen, while my own day goes unnoticed?
Is this a one-way relationship, or am I just overthinking?😔
Yeah, I kept overthinking, were you just busy, or maybe you just forgot I exist. There were times when I felt like I didn’t matter.
I feel jealous, but I’d rather not say anything.
Sometimes I just need a little affection, but I’d rather not ask for it.
I wish we could go out and be together, like we used to--coffee night, coffee dates, but I’d rather stay quiet than seem like I’m begging for your time.
I cried, yet I am the one who dries my own tears. I keep telling myself I deserve better than this.
You promised happiness, then why am I hurting?
Just because I accepted the situation, doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt.
I’ve learned to stop expecting from those who only ever made me feel like an option.
Was there ever real love between us? Whatever it is.....I'm choosing to value myself.
