07/26/2025
These are pictures of my house I rented when I moved out of my Amish parents house when I was 20 years old, just before I turned 21. I rented a house about 2 miles from my parents house and I was still in my parents church district. I had NO plans on leaving the Amish when I moved out. It is very rare for a young Amish person, guy or girl, to move out of their parents house that young if it is not for marriage. I was a very independent person. And I was pressured to make some decisions that I was not ready for. I felt like I desperately needed space. Moving out on my own was one of the best things I could've done! Because it gave me the level-headedness I needed to figure things out and the freedom to search for the truth! The freedom to study the Bible like crazy in search of answers that no one in the Amish could give me. The memories are still so raw. I felt pressured to join (means becoming baptised) the Amish church and that would mean a commitment to the Amish church for the rest of my life. My family didn't outrightly tell me to join the Amish church, actions always speak louder than words! My parents threw away some of my dresses that I loved and had for awhile, they wanted me to start wearing a little "plainer" dresses (because it's time to join church). They confronted me about a gray hoodie I had for years and wanted me to start wearing an "Amish" jacket (because it's time to join church). Along with other such things that made me angry and feel boxed-in at the time. I didn't talk too much but there was a mental war in my mind. At one moment there was a breaking point. I called my family's non-Amish friends that had a small house available. I asked if they would be interested in renting it to me. We settled on a price and I moved in a few weeks later. My family was not happy with me! They did not help me move my things. My cousin helped me to clean the house and move. 2 girls trying to move heavy furniture. The landowner helped out a little, thankfully.
I do NOT want anyone to think my I had 'bad' parents, you don't understand the mindset of an Amish person. My parents did the best they could, and I love them for that! I was not a typical Amish girl and they didn't know exactly what to do with that. I was called 'wierd' according to the Amish community. God had a plan for me, moving out was definitely part of His plan. I don't think I could've ended up leaving the Amish eventually when it was time if I would've lived with my parents. No one has perfect parents, no one had perfect children, NO ONE is perfect, don't forget that! Shortly after I moved out of my parents house I saw I was spending more money than I was making because I worked at an Amish bakery only getting absolute minimum wage and I knew I needed a new job plus I didn't even like working at the Amish bakery. So I got a job at a Plastic factory, with the help of someone else. At the factory I was making over double that I had been making, plus a ton of overtime and I was able to pay my bills, eat well, and save money. My mom was very unhappy that I got a new job because she knew that there were almost no Amish people working there and the 3 Amish guys that were working there were on a different shift than me. Everyone was concerned about me working at a job without other Amish people. But I didn't care because I knew I wouldn't be able to pay my bills otherwise and I liked this job a lot better so this is the only thing that made sense to me! At the factory I made a part that goes into the back of refrigerators for Whirlpool. I was working independently as an Air Wheel operator so I could have ear buds all day long as I was working. I had a phone and ear buds at the time so I started listening to Bible studies. I found some very reliable sources and started learning things that I confirmed with reading it myself afterward. Things began to make sense, I started understanding biblical truth, it scared me & confused me very much at first! Because it did not match up AT ALL with everything I was ever taught in my Amish life. I was told that the Amish teach the Bible, I was told a lot of things that was NEVER explained, NEVER elaborated and we were NOT allowed to question, so that is why I didn't get answers from the Amish around me because they don't have answers. The number 1 biggest thing in any Amish person's life is the Ordnung, the Ordnung controls everything! We were told the Ordnung is God's rules for us. Even though it is man-made made-up rules and it varies from one church district to the next! That doesn't make any logical sense! I also learned that the few rules that they claimed was biblical were all a misinterpretation! That makes sense because in the Amish #1 we were not allowed to study the Bible, we were told it will decieve us if we do, #2 we were not allowed to question the beliefs & traditions, only told to obey and be satisfied! I was in complete disbelief when I realized all the people around me that are members of the Amish church, are BLINDLY FOLLOWING what they are told and don't have any foundation, they don't have a clue about biblical truth, and here they are thinking that they are the only way. It took me a long while to get out of my Amish religious mindset! It always takes long to recognize the truth when someone is brainwashed all their life growing up. Thank God for taking the blinders off my eyes and transforming me from the inside out and saving me because of my faith in Him and what He did for me! 🙏 He guided me and gave me peace. Which is what I needed before I left the Amish. I would probably not have been able to leave if I didn't have complete peace. I had a choice to make: Choose Jesus or choose my family, friends and everything I ever knew. I was desperate for wanting to do what was right in God's eyes, not any person's eyes or opinion, and I knew without a doubt that I had to leave the Amish and choose Jesus. I could not personally live for Jesus and be Amish because it would be living a lie. So I quit going to Amish church and started wearing non-Amish clothes. I got my drivers license and bought a car with a lot of miles on it. It felt so good to be able to drive myself to work and not have to rely on someone else for once in my life! 🚗 But, I did not tell my parents that left the Amish until the following year. I visited my parents and family dressed in Amish clothes and there wasn't much conversation about my life. The day before Easter in 2024 I told my parents that I am getting married and I'm not Amish anymore. That was the last time I was allowed to see my family. We will always be praying for my family! 🙏 So there you have it, more about my last few years being Amish, and while I was leaving the Amish. There's so many more details! In the pictures here I still have my Amish curtains in the windows. I had electricity as well. It was a small one bedroom house.