12/09/2025
I was only seven years old when my childhood shifted in a way I could not understand. What should have been an age of innocence became a time marked by confusion, fear, and violations of trust from people who were supposed to love and protect me.
It began subtly, in ways that felt strange but not yet clearly wrong to my young mind. My father started crossing boundaries that no parent should ever cross. Little by little, those inappropriate actions escalated. He targeted moments when the house was quiet, when my mother and siblings were asleep, and used those opportunities to take advantage of my vulnerability. As a child, I didn’t have the language to describe what was happening—I only knew that something felt deeply wrong, and that I was afraid.
He used manipulation to keep me silent. He told me lies meant to confuse me and make me feel trapped. He suggested that no one would believe me if I spoke up, and that speaking out would cause chaos and heartbreak. For a child who already felt shy and quiet, that kind of psychological pressure was paralyzing. I began withdrawing into myself even more. It felt safer not to be noticed. It felt safer to stay small.
At one point, when I tried to resist his behavior, he reacted with anger and used threats to intimidate me. Facing that kind of fear from your own parent leaves a mark that is hard to put into words. It teaches you survival, but not in the way a child should ever need to learn it. It teaches you to hide your pain, to silence your voice, to carry burdens far too heavy for someone so young. As if that weren’t enough, another violation came from someone I should have been able to trust—one of my aunts. She crossed boundaries as well, reinforcing the belief that I had nowhere safe to turn. Layer after layer of betrayal built inside me, and I didn’t know where safety even existed.
Eventually, I found the courage to tell my mother. And when I did, she acted immediately. She didn’t question me, blame me, or hesitate. She got me out of that environment and sent me to live temporarily with another aunt—one I loved deeply and felt safe with. Only later did I learn that my older sister had also been subjected to the same abuse by our father. The truth was heartbreaking, but it also confirmed something important: I wasn’t imagining it. I wasn’t alone.
The emotional weight of my childhood followed me into my teenage years and adulthood. I began searching for love and acceptance in relationships that weren’t healthy, trying to fill the void that trauma had carved out inside me. I didn’t know how to heal. I didn’t know how to feel whole or worthy or safe. I didn’t understand what healthy love looked like, because for years, I had learned the opposite.
But everything changed when I decided to fully surrender my pain to Christ. I realized that healing wasn’t something I could achieve by my own strength. It required grace. It required releasing the shame that was never mine to carry. It required letting God rebuild parts of me that had been broken for far too long.
God blessed me with a husband who loves me in the way I always needed but never thought I would find. He is gentle, patient, supportive, and deeply grounded in faith. He prays for me and prays to love me the right way. He encourages me to share my story with others, not from a place of pity, but from a place of purpose. He sees who I am beyond the trauma—and he loves me wholeheartedly.
My past was painful, and there are parts of it that will always carry weight. But I wouldn’t erase it, because it shaped me into someone strong, compassionate, and determined to help others. Today, I feel called to speak out—especially to children who feel afraid to use their voice. I want to visit schools and let young people know that speaking up is not betrayal. It is bravery. It is protection. It is survival.
We must continue sharing our stories, because silence breeds more silence. And silence is where abuse hides.
I am a survivor.
I am no longer living in fear.
And it was my faith—my unwavering faith in God—that carried me through the darkest chapters of my life and led me into healing, peace, and purpose.