10/08/2025
They told me to put the baby down and let them learn to self soothe. I smiled and pulled them closer.
I am not racing this season. I am not trading warmth for a perfect schedule. The dishes can wait and the texts can wait because this is the only thing here that will not.
People worry about bad habits. I am building a nervous system that believes the world is safe. You cannot spoil a child with presence. You shape them with it.
One day there will be quiet rooms and clean counters and no one asking for me. When that day comes I will not wish I laid them down more. I will only wish I held them longer.
So I will rock. I will hum. I will let naps happen on me and call it holy. If that looks like weakness to some, that is fine. I am choosing attachment over applause and I sleep just fine with that choice.
