02/11/2021
So I've been gone a little while and many of you probably know the reason why I've been a bit everywhere but it's because I found out that my dad passed away.
It's been nearly a week since I got the news and I've been just trying to process the news and the fact that he's gone. I'm trying to take the right amount of time and take the right avenues to my grief.
When my mom died when I was very young I tried to go back to normal rather quickly and nearly had an emotional break down, I attempted to go back to somewhat normal behavior this weekend and nearly broke down into tears after someone asked me "How ya doing Vee?"
To everyone that is in my Discord, I'm so very sorry I forgot to post about this. Thank you for being here for me and it looks like I need to make a checklist. The grieving process is different for everyone and it's like a winding rollercoaster
One minute you're at peace and the next you're just so very sad or angry.
I've been doing a lot of thinking, a lot of reflecting, a lot of journaling.
You see a lot of yourself in your parents and when they're both gone then you're faced with a bit of your own mortality, even more so when both are gone.
I'm still going forward with the decisions I made before getting the news of my dad and I am still excited about it, but right now I believe what's best for me is to process my grief.
Also I've decided to take a break from some private Vampire the Masquerade Games that I'm in or about to be in. It's nothing on the Story Tellers or the Players, I just don't believe I'm in the right headspace to play at this point.
Thank you all for making this difficult time easier.
I'll be back whenever I feel like I'm good and ready
This has hit me harder than I thought it would which my sound weird
I'm just going to end the video here
Thanks for listening
Thanks for understanding.