12/31/2019
2019 me looking at 2010 me like “boy you done some growing UP”. Whew. Considering I spent my 20s in the 2010s, this decade will always hold a special place in my heart. So yes...this is a decade post haha.
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I can’t even begin to unpack everything that has happened this past decade, so I’ll just say this:
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There has been immense pressure, the lowest of lows, the highest of highs, intense digging, and a whole lot of GROWTH. The humbling thing is that you can’t have a diamond without depth, pressure, and heat. It takes TIME and it friggin’ hurts.
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I feel like God has been continuously reminding me, “It’s going to be worth the wait. Keep fighting the good fight. Keep going, son.” What’s going to be worth it, God? “A life free of fear, insecurity, idolatry, crippling doubt, depression, anxiety, pride...that’s the process. To die to oneself is to gain true life and peace regardless of your circumstances. Notice that I didn’t say a life free of pain or obstacles or challenges. That’s the process, son.” Wow. He lovingly walks us through the fires of life so we can be more like Him. That’s it. It’s simple. And because of this process I have more peace and confidence than ever before.
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Anyways, I could write a novel about what this decade has taught me and maybe I will someday haha. All I know is that God is good and this coming decade/year is going to be AMAZING. And not because of the external circumstantial shifts, while that will be fun, but because of the internal peace from the Prince of peace.
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So I say cheers to this past decade. Cheers to all the people that made it what it was. And cheers to 2010 Chad. I’m proud of the man you are becoming and so is He. Don’t be so hard on yourself. You are deeply loved and adored by the Almighty God. 2020 here we come!
