04/23/2025
I don’t even know where to begin, but my heart is heavy. Lately, I’ve been struggling in ways I never imagined. Life has a way of throwing curveballs, and right now, I feel like I’m standing in the middle of a storm with no umbrella, no shelter—just the cold, relentless rain pouring down on me.
I smile in front of people, but inside, I feel like I’m drowning. I go about my day, pretending everything is fine, but the truth is, I feel empty. I feel alone. And the scariest part? I don’t even know if anyone notices.
Have you ever felt like you're screaming for help, but no one hears you? That’s where I am right now. I look around, and everyone seems to be moving forward while I feel stuck, frozen in place. It’s not that I don’t want to move forward—I just don’t know how anymore.
I wish I could explain exactly what’s wrong, but it’s a mix of things. Broken trust, unspoken words, missed chances, and the weight of expectations I can’t seem to meet. I’m exhausted from trying to be strong. I’m tired of always saying, “I’m fine” when I’m not. Because the truth is, I’m not okay.
What hurts the most is feeling like I don’t matter. Like if I disappeared tomorrow, the world would keep spinning, and nothing would really change. I know people would move on. I know life doesn’t stop for anyone, but deep down, I just wish someone would stop for me. I wish someone would notice the pain in my eyes, the exhaustion in my voice, the sadness behind my silence.
I don’t want sympathy. I just want to be heard. To be seen. To be understood. I just want someone to say, “I see you. I hear you. You’re not alone.”
So, if you’ve ever felt like this—lost, broken, or invisible—please know that I understand. I know how hard it is to pretend you’re okay when you’re not. And if no one else has told you today: You matter. You are loved. The world is better with you in it.
If you’re reading this, please take a second to send me a message..
