Mama Poet

04/05/2026

I have some thoughts that I wanna set free

See if it sparks a change.. or maybe just makes a few think a bit..

What if the cross is actually a traumatic symbol for Christ

And that Easter is not a holiday for him

But a reminder of being bound to a wooden cross to be tortured and killed..

all to save us true

And how glorious and amazing that is

And how incredibly grateful I am to have such a loving God

But look at where we are right now

The world is burning

God is not celebrating

Perhaps he is weary

Maybe he is angry with his children

for still misunderstanding his word

Maybe today is not a glorious day of renewal but a day to look at ourselves

really look

And see that we have totally fu**ed this up

And that we need to do better

To stop praying in churches

while being hateful online

and treating others like garbage on the street

But actually be the children Christ died on the cross for

Because I don't think he is looking down on us with a loving smile

I think he is holding his head in his hands

and weaping for all that we have done to each other

And most of it was done in his own name

I am grateful to be a child of God

And to be so loved and guided

Please do something kind today

Be kind to yourself

Lets try to do better

Happy Easter 🩵

02/26/2026

"Find the thing that bothers you most and do something about it."

In 1961, Joan Trumpauer Mulholland made history by bravely standing up for civil rights, risking her freedom to fight for justice. Arrested during a protest, she faced a shocking and absurd form of discrimination. Law enforcement officials, unable to understand why a white woman would take such a bold stand for civil rights, tested her for mental illness. Their disbelief highlighted the deep-rooted racism of the time and the societal prejudices that tried to silence voices of conscience.

Joan’s courage was not only an act of personal bravery but a powerful statement about the fight for equality in America. She refused to let fear or societal expectations dictate her actions. Her involvement in civil rights protests, despite the risks, made her a key figure in challenging segregation and advocating for racial justice.

This story reminds us of the challenges faced by early civil rights activists, especially those who defied social norms. Joan Trumpauer Mulholland’s determination to stand on the right side of history serves as an inspiration to generations fighting for equality today. Her legacy proves that courage and conviction can disrupt injustice and create meaningful change.

Even decades later, her story resonates as a powerful example of allyship, resilience, and moral clarity in the face of ignorance and prejudice. Joan’s actions continue to inspire activists, students, and ordinary citizens to speak out and act against injustice wherever they see it.

Her life reminds us that the fight for civil rights was not only the struggle of those directly oppressed but also of those who chose to stand in solidarity against discrimination. Joan Trumpauer Mulholland’s bravery is a timeless lesson in empathy, courage, and the power of doing what is right.

02/26/2026

01/26/2026

Trigger warning:

If you are already overwhelmed skip this post. Its ok. I'm overwhelmed too.

Ok big news. But definitely not good news 😅🤣

I already have fibromyalgia. Chronic Lyme. Chronic fatigue Syndrome or ME cfs. And other stuff that comes and goes. Like basil cell skin cancer 🫠😅

I have a few possible but most likely diagnoses. AS which is a autoimmune that attacks the spine. Uveitis which attacks the eyes and is from the same disease. I've already lost the ability to drive or see at night. So that sucks.

The liver issue is being figured out. They removed my gallbladder last year in December because my liver was damaged. But they were only guessing. And it wasn't my gallbladder 😅.

My new doctor ordered an MRI of my liver and a blood test to confirm PBC. Which is another autoimmune disease that attacks the bile ducts. Which in turn damages the liver.

If I have PBC I will most likely need a liver transplant. If it is already in cirrhosis and the disease has progressed I might not have more than 4 years left. If its still in the beginning stage its more likely 10 years left to live.

I am definitely spiraling a bit. Or a lot 😅🤣. My doctor only told me the name of the disease. The rest was supplied via the internet. Though not Google. But a medical journel.

I am glad to be finally on the cusp of getting real answers. And honestly I was pretty sure I wouldn't be here much longer anyway.

I told my mom. She was nonchalant and dismissive as usual. Dont worry until I know everything though she said. She says I'm hysterical all the time about my health.

I replied that I have every right to yell and curse and scream while being so incredibly sick for so long. While until recently no one even considered me sick or disabled.

By the way. She says hysterical but mostly I'm just silently cryng by myself 😅😢😭

Please don't get sad if you might... I have a dark sense of humor and I will be OK. No matter what. Because my kids need me. And I have a book to write ✍️ 😊

01/26/2026

I posted this months ago. Are you paying attention now?!

01/26/2026

I do feel ashamed for feeling anger when poc asked if white people were allies. I saw white people apologizing for being white and it bothered me. I felt like I was hated for being white. but I watched a reel with a black woman. and she said that black people have been dealing with the s**t thats happening for centuries. that they tried to tell us. it woke me up. I have a strong sense of justice. unbearably strong. it is exhausting. I hyperfocused on the Holocaust when I was a teen. I was obsessed and couldn't understand how so many people just let thousands of jews and poc and gay or whatever they hated. and put them in gas chambers. and lined them up against a wall and executed them. and piled hundreds of naked bodies in mass graves. but its fu***ng happening again. its just at the beginning stage. and people are agreeing with the atrocities and making excuses for people being gunned down in the streets right before our eyes. this is how it happened. mass ignorance. and fear. so people turned away. because it was too dangerous to act. but as I watch all of these influencers and famous individuals shout that this is not ok. and that we will not let this fascism stand. I feel hope. I will not be a bystander. I will not be on the wrong side of history. Stand with us.