09/10/2026
There was a time I showed up to a NICU rotation reeking of alcohol.
I wasnโt drunk. I wasnโt impaired. But my preceptor pulled me aside and told me I smelled like booze and that I needed to clean myself up before rounds.
I was absolutely mortified.
And then I went back to workโฆ and kept drinking for years.
When I got sober, the pink cloud felt incredible. I was proud. I finally felt free from so much of the shame.
Until the pink cloud faded.
And suddenly, all those memories I had buried started creeping back in.
Some are harder than this one. Some Iโm still not ready to share.
But Iโm learning that sobriety isnโt just about putting down the drink.
Sometimes itโs about learning how to forgive the person you were when you were drinking.
And that part can be really fu***ng hard. ๐ค
