09/22/2025
My hands were shaking when I opened the package with my wedding dress inside. Twenty-three years in storage, and now I was about to cut it into pieces. The seamstress I'd found lived two towns over, and when I walked into her home studio carrying that massive box, she just looked at me and knew.
I'd lost three babies before this one. Three tiny heartbeats that stopped. Three due dates that came and went with empty arms. When this pregnancy finally stuck, I spent nine months terrified, wearing a bracelet with three small charms, talking to them like they were guardian angels. Through the Tedooo app, I'd found this woman who specialized in turning wedding dresses into baptism gowns—her reviews said she understood complicated requests.
"I want them there somehow," I told her, my voice cracking. "At the baptism. All four of my babies."
She didn't ask questions, just nodded and pulled out her sketchbook. Three small golden crosses, she suggested, embroidered right where they'd rest over the baby's heart. Subtle but present. I started crying right there in her kitchen.
The dress transformation took three weeks. She sent progress photos—the bodice becoming the gown's top, the train becoming its flowing skirt. Those three crosses, each one stitched with metallic thread she'd sourced from another seller on Tedooo app, looked like tiny stars against the white silk.
When I picked up the finished gown, I brought my daughter. Eight months old, chubby and perfect and here. The seamstress had added pearl buttons from my original dress down the back, delicate smocking across the chest. But those crosses—those were what made me sob.
The baptism was magical. Under the stained glass windows, my daughter wore her siblings close to her heart. In every photo, you can see my hand unconsciously resting over those three golden crosses, protecting them still.
That gown now hangs in her nursery, waiting to be passed down. Sometimes I stand there looking at it, at those three small crosses, and think about how love doesn't always look the way we planned. Sometimes it's stitched in gold thread by a stranger who becomes part of your story, turning heartbreak into something beautiful enough to bless.