08/14/2013
Heres a project i dont think i ever posted, its about my ex danielle i must have made it just after we broke up, because trust me even i dont stand by these words anymore
"Before you walk into her life, you need to know something about her. You need to know that she's a very insecure person. She has very low self esteem. She's not perfect. In fact, she's everything but perfect. She finds it hard to trust people now. She's made mistakes in the past & she's learned from them. She's still making mistakes right now so don't think she stopped. She still misses the people she shouldn't even be thinking about anymore. She's liked, she's loved, she's been hurt & she's also hurt people as well. She's full of flaws but her, this is who she is. Before you walk into her life, you need to know these things because once you walk into her life, you can't walk out of it just because things are getting hard, like everybody else has."
I dont know what these words are from, but i do know this;
And all these things are true but i ignored the warning and fell for her anyways, made promises and vows, but its hard not to when she saved my life Because the good in her out weighed the bad, she saved my life she gave me reason to live, i fell in love and it was beautiful, not the kind of "its a bright shiny day" beautiful but the kind of " lose yourself in a cosmic wave of stars on an everlasting journey of realization and serenity" beautiful things were perfect and i got lost in her she was everything to me before i had the chance to meet her,
She will never know the things i do for her, maybe she did once but never again, she seems confused like she doesnt know which road to take
But im still here
Sitting in the back ground
Trying not to get to close to the flames because ill inly get burnt
But the burn feels nice
Because with every burn i feel something i know that im alive and somewhere in that feeling i feel love
She hurt me but she never did anything bad, because love comes with pain and heartbreak, love keeps no record of wrongs, love forgives before anything, love endures and leaves the troubles in the past, i love her im in love with her that will never change, i will keep my vows and promises
ill no longer fail her and ill make sure she is always happy she will always have love to be given to her, i am eternal because she made it so, ill give my best impression of a pen and write for her, tale after tale, never ending all intertwined with the same theory, "love is eternal" and i will write , now, tomorrow, next week, forever
Ill write about her ill write to her ill write all the things my heart cannot say,
I may never get to call her mine again i may never hold her again, but in my dreams i never stopped, and in those dreams everything is perfect, ill make those dreams as close to reality as i can, shell be eternally happy and ill protect her always
Life is like a test, everyone looked like a wrong answer and she were my best guess, when she said yes, instantly she became the right one, i aced that test, passed that class, i was proud,
She took my pride and broke it, im a scarred man and i may never bounce back,
She still plays with her toys called boys and men
While im on the road to becoming a real boy, a real man
She keeps whispering her lies and secrets
While im an open book waiting to be read and cherished like a good novel soon to become a hit movie
Everything i do, i do for her but it will never win her back
She will never see the love thats right in front of her
The man who sacrificed everything and did so much for her
And maybe she will regret not opening her eyes
Maybe she wont
But either way i will become stronger
She saved me from darkness and tossed me back inside
Ill grow to live this darkness ill accept it and use it
Ill give her one decision
Im here take me as friend or love
Either way im here for her to take just this once
People are blind
But i can see
Im everything everyone wanted me to be, i an the darkness and although you may think im cold
Im not
Inside my deep cavern of chilled shadows
Theres a flame
It burns for her
Only her
I just hope she will soon realize whats right in front if her
The love she always wanted love that will never leave
My only regret is her not loving me the same
"We accept the love we think we deserve"
I deserve the love she gives me, such a cold love
The wrongs ive done
Not as bad as she thinks but still wrong
I deserve to die