07/08/2025
You forced me to study narcissism.
Now enjoy my educated ass.
I didnāt become this self-aware by accident.
You manipulated me, gaslit me, twisted reality until I didnāt know up from down.
You made me question my worth, my sanity, my truth.
But instead of breaking me, you activated something dangerousā
A version of me that no longer tolerates bu****it.
A version that sees patterns, red flags, hidden motives.
You thought you were conditioning me to depend on you.
What you really did was train me to survive you.
I started reading, watching, learningā
Every silent treatment, every blame shift, every love bomb.
You were the perfect case study.
And I took notes like my life depended on itābecause it did.
Now, I can smell manipulation a mile away.
I no longer feel guilty for having boundaries.
I donāt apologize for calling out disrespect.
Iām not confused anymore.
You donāt get to decide who I am.
You donāt get to twist the narrative to make yourself the victim.
You taught me to recognize emotional warfare.
You taught me what a false apology sounds like.
You taught me that someone can say "I love you" and still destroy you.
So yesāthank you.
Thank you for pushing me so far into the dark that I had no choice but to find the light.
Thank you for showing me what love isnāt, so Iāll never settle again.
I studied you.
I dissected every word, every manipulation, every tactic.
And now?
Now Iām freeāmentally, emotionally, spiritually.
Not only did I survive you,
I outgrew you.
So yes, enjoy this version of me.
The educated, evolved, untouchable me.
Because this time, I see everythingā
And I choose me.